My Dreams, Astral Experiennces, and Personal Updates

        I've been having some crazy strong dreams lately. They're very intense, and when I am dreaming I at times go into an astral projection. I can tell by how my upper body feels after and how more extra vivid the experiences are. In a recent astral experience I saw Hondor who appeared to be as much taller then he usually does. He had blazing golden hair and blazing golden eyes both illuminating brightly. I know this was his more astral or soul image. Normally he will appear in a more human format. But this time he really looked like the light being that I know he is. In the astral experience I was with my husband and some of my other spirit family group. It was nice to be able to share those moments in the astral with them.

        I have recently did two youtube videos that was mostly prompted from Loki. I kept getting spirit messages that he wanted me to discuss a topic about him and also something about the Godspouse topic. I'll include the links to the videos below. But he is one who will bug and bug until you follow through on a request. I say that with love though. I was trying to stray away from discussing topics of Godspousing and even topics of him. This is just for personal reasons so I can focus more on my own personal spirit relationships with them. But when the spirit realm continues to send messages, I listened to the call. My channel isn't big, and really it's as big as it needs to be. Those who the videos are intended to reach are reached, and really it's a hobby for me. Or so I thought. But I am coming to realize that the Gods have been placing topic ideas in front of me so I will discuss them. Those are the videos which end up getting more views then some of my others. I am very happy to be a catalyst to bring through messages from the spirit realms to those who need the message. After the Loki video about the topic of why he goes silent, I got messages from people saying how they had needed to hear that message and how it helped give them some perspective. I am honored to do that for the Gods and the spirit realms.

I have been wanting to work on a new book I am going to publish eventually. It's mainly the story of my past life. I will be working with my spirit guides and my spirit team, particularly Hondor, to write this story. I am still deciding which very personal parts to keep in and which to leave out. It's going to be a journey to write, because I know how that life ended. But perhaps it will be "inspired" by my past life. I am excited to get it going mainly for myself actually. I love writing. My other book Heartmine Destiny isn't a big seller by any means, but I am very proud of it nonetheless. Publishing book is something I always wanted to do, and I did it. Also I have been thinking about publishing a book of spells or something like thatl. I know that should be a big hit among those who purchase readings and spell castings from my shop DarkSecretCreations. So lot's of ideas flowing through my mind. I want to post some spiritual topics up here instead of it just being a website of my thoughts. I want to have an entire section of helpful articles for people. So expect a bit of changes around here. I will be working on those in the next week or so. Thanks for reading. Much Love!!

Cosmic Blessings

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Finished My Spirit Journal

My first full spirit journal

I have something relatively Monumental for me that has happened. It may not be as large as some people would consider it, but for me I feel as though it is very special. I recently finished writing in my spirit Journal. The entire book is filled from front to back. I had to start a new spirit Journal. I began that journal on April 12th, 2017. The last entry that was put in it was for May 12, 2018. So basically 1 year and 1 month. It is so special to me, because over the duration of this year I have been able to look back on my progression spiritually. I have grown so much over the course of this year emotionally, spiritually and even bettered myself physically. I feel as though this is an accomplishment for the most part because throughout the times of me writing in the journal I have connected with my spirit team. So each time I did that, I built the relationship even more with the members of my spirit team.

The last entry

The last entry in the journal was a conversation between the Norse god Loki and I. I did so via the process of automatic writing. It is a form of channeling. I began the entry and didn't even realize that this would be the last entry. I had not realized that I had actually got to the last page of the book. So when I realized it was astonishing. Because when I first began the very first entry I wondered how long it was going to take for me to finish the book. Was I ever going to finish it? Or was this going to be something that I never fully accomplished. Was this going to be something that I started, but didn't finish. Well I am very happy that I did. After I finished the conversation entry between Loki and I, I went back and reread a little bit of the other entries. It's amazing what had came through. It's amazing how much I learned.

The First Entry

               I'm not sure how many people out there who may come across my blog website. I'm not sure how many people out there who read this. But if any of you are reading it, and if you are searching for a way to gain a more deeper connection with your spirit team. Consider beginning a spirit Journal. The things that you can write in a spirit Journal are basically anything. I would say log down the messages that you would want to say to your spirit team. Imagine as though they were sitting in front of you. Then write down what you would say to them. After you're finished with that, pay attention to whatever signs that you get. Maybe some of the signs will be synchronistic. Whatever signs you get even if it's meditations, and your Waking Life signs, or dreams; write them down in your spirit Journal.

My New Spirit Journal

If you are somebody who is familiar with channeling or automatic writing then you can do that in there too. The possibilities are endless. It's your journal and you can customize it in however way you want. For me I basically stuck with the layout of writing them letters or conversations. So that's what I stuck to. But you can have your layout in whatever way you want. I would say don't put too much thought into it. If you want to begin a spirit Journal, just begin it. Take a new notebook and then write down what you would say to your spirit guide or any other person in the spirit realm that you would like to communicate with. They will get your message. Ask them to give you some signs or some messages. In the days after be very mindful of synchronistic signs or events. Then lock them down. It's as simple as that. I promise you the more you do this the more you will not regret it. You will one day look back on the journal and realize just how much you have progressed spiritually. You will realize just how much of a deeper Bond you have with that Spirit entity because of your spirit journal. It can also help you expand your awareness to your intuition and to paying attention to signs from the spirit realms.

Thoughts From Under My Tree

       I sit here under my yellow poplar tree in the front yard. I'm looking at the green of the grass, and a cat sleeping in the yard. It's a beautiful sky today. A nice bright blue with big puffy white clouds. I got up early this morning and I got a chance to experience the energy of the morning. Normally I don't get up until about 8 or 9 p.m. But this morning I got up at about 6 p.m.. So I got an early start, of course after I drank some espresso. The energy of the morning time is very beautiful, but I still feel drawn to the sunset. There's something about the approaching night time as we anticipate the stars coming out shining in the dark. It's so magical.

        I have been thinking about a lot of stuff today. A lot of random things have been occurring in my life lately. It was also brought to my attention how I vent a lot of emotions on this website blog. Whatever you want to call it, yes I vent a lot of emotions on here. But I am proud of this little space on the internet that I call my own. I realized that I had not posted up anything in awhile, and I felt the need to say something. But on and off all day I had been wondering what I wanted to say. I don't know, and so even as I type this I am still wondering where this post is going. Isn't it the same with life. We go through life and knowing what the next corner will bring, but we need to have faith and hope that it will be positive. We need to have faith in ourselves and faith in our spirit teams. We need to have hope in ourselves and hope in our spirit teams. That's what I've been trying to do.

        So lately what's been going on in my life it's a lot of different things. Dwayne recently went to an eye doctor appointment, and he was nervous about it. We are generally not people who go to doctors unless it is absolutely necessary. Whether you consider that good or bad, it's what we do. We place a lot of our faith and spiritual and metaphysical healing. So far it has worked well for us. We have faith that it will continue to work well. But alas this is not about doctors or doctor visits. It's just that what something to happened recently. He got a new set of frames, and then decided to get a purple pair as a backup. We have been planning on going to the beach and just sitting there for a little while. We have also been planning on going to the gym to get our exercise on.

       Dwayne had a birthday on April 30th. Mine is coming up on July 5th. We use our birthdays as ways to celebrate our spirit family. We have joined together or Spirit team, consisting of our Spirit guides and a lot of other entities we connect with regularly. We have joined them together, and we celebrate the bonding that we share with them on his and my birthdays. So that was something that was fun. We took a week off of doing psychic readings. It was soothing. Even though I did have my mind on doing readings. I was not able to disassociate my mind from that spiritual work. So yeah a lot of humdrum stuff on the daily scheme of things. A lot of boring things. I'm a relatively boring person if you get to know me on a personal level. Not very exciting, haha. I'm not putting myself down it's just the way it is.

         Another aspect of my life that I have been contemplating a lot lately is my connection with Loki and Thor. These are two individuals that I have been reluctant to talk about publicly. Publicly in regards to this blog or my YouTube channel. I've just been sort of silent on the subject, but I have been regularly connecting with the both of them. Also I've been connecting with a lot of other entities. Some of which have been knew. There is an underworld demon that has been in my life lately, and I decided to befriend him. That has been exciting to befriend entities who are commonly misrepresented or misunderstood. I feel as though everybody has something to teach you, and I'm open to learning. I have recently had a few people communicate with me about the topic of Godspouses. This is a topic that I was straying away from for a while. No particular reason, I just didn't feel the need to talk about the subject. I have done a few blog post about it, I have done a few YouTube videos about it. There's none much else I could say about the topic, or so I thought, but I suppose I am misunderstood. Because the topic keeps reoccurring in my life. So you could probably expect me to talk about this topic again in the future.

         Really not much else has been going on. I've been enjoying the slow movements that life sometimes brings. Like floating along in the water, that's what I feel like I'm doing right now. Just enjoying the ride as I float along the water that is life. It's a beautiful thing in my opinion. I'm not sure if I'm making any sense to anyone else out there, but I feel like I'm making sense to myself. Recently I had somebody reach out to me who was “representing” Loki and this person claimed to have a message for me. I feel the message was more for this person rather then for me, but this person wasn’t open to equal friendship. But this Loki person said they couldn’t read what was wrong with me so they could give the message. It made me smile a bit, because it’s confirmation that my spirit team are helping me keep my privacy spiritually and emotionally. I like to share my thoughts and emotions, but only those of which I feel guided to. I don’t want spiritual people seeing into my shit unless I ask them to.

        Speaking of Loki, he has been giving me signs lately that he has various messages for me. I'm going to deeply connect tonight. I will admit I have been focusing a lot more on some of my other Spirit guides. I have also been focusing upon Thor, whom I call Hondor, more. Particularly with the connection that he and I have in regards to my soul past. A particular past life. I've been diving deeper into my soul missions and deeper into my soul experiences. It's a beautiful thing. I've been learning so much more about myself and it's things that I can apply to my current lifetime. I feel like I'm progressing so much spiritually, and it is helping me in the physical. I've been overcoming a lot of Shadow work lately. Basically just sorting through negative emotions and negative things. Understanding the negative, then releasing it to make way for more positive things. I haven't had many dreams lately or astral travels. My dreams have been very inconsistent. But when I do have a dream it is thorough. I have been with Loki and Hondor in a few dreams as well as the new Underworld demon has showed in one of my dreams. I have met new people in my dreams. Some are people that I have never seen before in my physical life here on Earth. But these people tend to reoccur in my dream. Basically they're members of my soul family, but I just don't recognize all of them yet. If anybody is out there reading this, I commend you for reading this far into my randomness.

Day Dreams, Random Thoughts, and Spirit Relationships

Lately I have been drawn to many different things, but I must remind myself to stay focused. I need to keep my mind at rest sometimes, because I am always thinking about something. I recently realized why my husband is much better at getting into a deeper meditation, it's because his mind isn't always thinking something. I do not mean that as a blast at men either. It's easier for him to clear his mind I suppose, and that is something that I don't always do. I could be watching a favorite movie and my mind is thinking about something else, even though it's a movie I enjoy. So lately my spirit team have been helping me with this. Thor has assisted me by reminding me to stay focused. He reminds me that there is only so much one person can do at a time or think about at a time, and I need to find my balance. I am one who daydreams a lot too, always have been. 

Funny story, when I was in 9th grade there was a guy in my Radio TV Commercial Writing class who thought I was on drugs and always high because I would stare at the wall zoned out for long periods of time. Believe me or not, I've never taken drugs. During that time I was a completely different person in my actions. I was very shy and withdrawn and went through a lot of depression. So daydreaming and such was a means of escape I suppose. But now it's not like I am daydreaming to escape reality... These thoughts I think about are vast and wide. Sometimes I think about life issues, the world, humanity, our civilization, the higher realms, my past lives, my soul missions, my connection with my spirit team. I think about their lives and their experiences. The list goes on and on. I have recently realized that my oldest brother has the same issues, but to an extreme. He will stress and worry himself into a damn near panic. He is not a chill person. I would catagorize myself normally as a chill person. I'm very laid back, admittedly at times lazy lol, and just a relaxed individual. But my brother takes his racing thoughts to a point of stress and it pushes people away. But that's all I'll say about him. My point is that I don't want to allow myself to welcome in stress and worry because of those thoughts I am thinking a lot. 

Don't get me wrong, they're not negative. Some are from time to time when I think about earth, animals, humanity, daily life issues, etc. But most of them are the types of thoughts one might have when daydreaming with your head in the clouds. That's totally me. And so Thor and my spirit team have been helping me to know when to focus on tasks and when to give time for daydreaming. A balance. I am greatful that I have them to help me.

Over the past two days I have been talking with a female who reached out to me over this blog using the contact me section. She is into Loki and some other deities. She's a nice person. I'm thinking Loki has led her and I to be friends. Over the past year or two I've not had much luck with remaining connected to Loki loving people. Not sure exactly why. I guess we were not vibing. But I thank Loki for leading me to this female for friendship. Speaking of Loki, I have been infrequently reaching out to him. That is another reason I want to balance my thoughts. I have my mind on so many things, and this makes me not have enough time to reach out to all of my spirit team who I love and adore. Loki and all others, I am sorry. I feel I favor Thor. I don't want to, but that's how I feel. I cannot help it. He and I seem to vibe really well. And if you're familiar with me, you'll know in my personal connecting with Thor I do not call him Thor. I call him by a soul name he gave me before. I wanted to mention that, because that's how close I feel to him. Also in no way am I sayin my connection to him or any other deity is better. I am just stating my thoughts here. Got to get them out someway. Thanks for listening. 

Cosmic Blessings

Hateful Comments & Rising Above - Shine Bright!!

Hey there everyone, I hope you all are doing well. I have been having a good week. Nothing too much new here. Go check out www.DarkSecretCreations.blogspot.com for other personal updates. Once there click the blog page. Anyway... I just checked my StarlingsOfLight youtube channel to approve comments that have been posted. I have it opted to approve comments just incase any spammers or religion pushing assholes come through. But I got a comment on one of the videos from a Channeled Message saying that the video was bullshit and they didn't believe it. Well then..... if it's such bullshit then why did they feel obligated to comment about it. If they didn't believe it so passionately then why bother saying so? I deleted the comment since it wasn't worth posting and I blocked them from commenting again. But I feel a piece of them deep down did want to believe it, but the rational part of the brain that always wants proof of everything was stopping them. Whatever the case it bothers me why people feel the need to leave hateful comments. It doesn't bother me personally, as in I'm not necessarily offended. I will continue channeling and sharing those global messages. But it bothers me in the sense that humanity has so much to learn. Sometiimes humanity and life here on earth really messes with me. But I charge on. What else are we to do? I must let my inner light shine brightly. My friends!! If anyone tries to bring you down then let your inner light shine!! Let that person dig their own grave and wallow in their own pain while we shine above the hatred!! 

Shine Brightly My Friends!!

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Website Updates & My Thoughts On Fear

Website Updates & My Thoughts On Fear

          I have been feeling an urge to write more lately. I don't want to let my youtube channel go, but I find myself unmotivated to do videos on there. For one it's because it's so cold around here lately, and I love doing my videos outside. But another reason is because lately I've been feeling like writing is much more theraputic. I don't go back and watch my videos. But I do go back and read what I've wrote in the past. So the future of my website here is me sharing more of my personal experiences. I will be making use of this website to vent my emotions, share my opinions, etc. I will still be doing videos, but expect much more from this website. If you're with me and want to be notified of updates here then you can subscribe via the side bars to the left or right. 

           Anyway, my thoughts lately have been on a woman who I used to know. She knows I channel differet entities, including aliens. Well this female is one who does not like aliens, especially the greys. She told me before that she feared I was sending the aliens to her. She feared they were getting to her through me. Her reasoning was because if they talked to me when I channel them, then they can get to her through me. As a result of her fear, we no longer speak. We lost a potentially wonderful friendship because of her fear. I have also been thinking about one of my brothers. He is very into conspiracy theories. He takes those things very seriously, and he stresses about it to the point of it affecting his happiness. So he is stressing about it to the point of fear. There was another female I knew a few years ago. She had a fear of opening herself up emotionally. Instead of her facing all sides of her emotions, she pushed the blame and ruined a wonderful friendship while at the same time cutting herself off from spiritual progression. 

             I'm not forgetting myself here either. I have acted in fear. There was many times when I was in school when I walked away instead of taking up for myself. There are times I would hide from my emotion and bottle it up instead of facing it. That was me feeling fear of facing my own true self and fear of facing my true potential. Still in recent times I don't share my beliefs openl with everyone. I fear being judged. So we all fear something. But I have been realizing my own fears lately. This is a part of my own shadow work. It all began with me seeing other people act out in fear. So this got me to ask myself some very important questions. Do I do that? The answer is yes. I do it, you do it, we all do it sometimes. 

            So what do we do when we have these sorts of various fears? I suppose it's about evaluating our thoughts and feelings. Asking yourself questions. What do I fear? Why do I fear it? Is this fear based in reality? Is it a rational fear? Is it connected to my past or a past situation? If so, why and how does that past situation still have an affect on me now? When we fear we give away our power to that fear. When we give away out power, we cannot fully connect with our soul selves, and that makes spiritual progression really hard. So I hope you have found some fondness in my words today. Let's try to remember when we have fear based thoughts, evaluate where that fear is coming from. Through facing our fears we become stronger. 

When is a time you have faced one of your own fears? Let's share our experiences and support one another here. 

Cosmic Blessings

Random Thoughts: Loki On My Side & More

        So I wanted to share my thoughts today, and I thought it would be better for me to write it down as opposed to talking it in a video. If you've come across this blog post please be warned that it will be a bit rambly. I am just going with the flow of my thoughts and venting them here.

          I have been connecting with the spirit realms quite easily lately. It's wonderful. I've been having vivid dreams and visitations in the astral dimension from my spirit family. I am happy about this because it's given me a lot more connection to a few of my soul family in particular. This is Hondor and the Norse God Loki. Both are spirit guardians to me. I've learned a lot over the past month about things in my life.

          Loki has shared with me a few things over the past few days and weeks. He says for me to be aware of a particular person who I considered a friend. This person isn't someone who is good for me energetically. This person can be quite draining. He told me that he is disapointed that it occured that way, and he appologizes for leading this person into my life. He isn't mad at that person, but is disapointed in their unwillingness to be open emotionally. But he tells me this person has a rough life and blocks herself a lot and she doesn't progress because of her emotional blocks and fears.

          But there is a lesson I've learned, to be mindful of who I call a friend, because not everyone is as open to friendship. I honestly try to be open to friendship, but I am coming to learn that I might not want to be as open as I have been. People can take advantage of you if you're too open. I don't want to close myself off to friendship, but I am going to find a balance in that area. Loki saying that he was disapointed in that female made me think that I don't want my soul family to be disapointed in me. I wouldn't want Loki, Hondor, or any of them to be disapointed. I want to make them proud. I don't want them to think that I am using them for spiritual connection. I am not. I see them as family, just as close as my physical family... maybe closer in some aspects. So him saying that this particular female made him disapointed, and he is going to distance himself from her a bit made me feel contemplative. Have I ever disapointed those who guide me from the spirit realms? I hope not, because lately I have been trying to listen to my intuition, hear their guidance, and follow through.

          I have felt some people lately sending negative energy my way. I am very protective of my space, and I won't hesitate to protect myself or my loved ones. Above all, I have a spirit team who I ask to please protect me. They know when to unleash wrath if someone tries to send curses or evil eye energies may way too much. So I feel Loki warning me of this is his way of saying that he supports me in this and they're there for me. That is something very wonderful to know. I dreamed of this particular female last week, and there was another famale who I dreamed of. Both seperate dreams, but they appeared in there and I take it as a sign that they are two who are sending me negative energy. I take it as a warning from my soul family to be mindful of protecting my space. It was their warning to me. I am eternally greatful for their assistance. Let this blog post be my written thoughts as a message to the world saying I love Loki, Hondor, Lorelei, Amoris, Odin, Freya, Ptah, the Galactics and all others in my spirit team, THANK YOU!! HAIL ALL OF YOU!!! To you all I give my pride!!