Friday, December 1, 2017

Loki And Thor: My Two Loves Who Guide Me Every Day - A Godspouse Testimony

Loki And Thor: My Two Loves Who Guide Me Every Day - A Godspouse Testimony

          First and foremost I want to begin this by saying that I am not a Marvel Fangirl. I do not associate the actors to the Norse Gods. I am a Pagan and I suppose you could say that I am a polytheist. I see the Gods as very real individuals, who are just as real as you and me, and not as metaphors or aspects of one great God or Goddess. believe in many different dimensions and realms, and I believe that this is where many of the Gods and Goddesses reside. I have been into stories of Thor and Norse Mythology since I was a young girl. I remember it would be in the Summer in the 90's and we didn't have air conditioning when I was little. So when it thunder stormed we would go outside and enjoy the rain as long as the lightling wasn't streaking too dangerously. It was a lot of fun, and I remember the tales of Thor storming accross the sky with his chariot, goats, and hammer. I remember hearing tales of the rainbow leading to a fantasy realm. I believed in elves, fairies, and magic. I saw all of this as real, and I still do. In adulthood I began to research more and more into Norse Mythology, and I realized by connection to Loki. I realized I had visitations from him when I was young.

          I remember being about 3 years old and I was going to a celebration at my older brother's school for a group he was in called Future. I remember seeing a man and a female who looked very different from the 80's fashion styles at the time. The female was to the right of the man and was slightly shorter then the man. She had a darker brownish red colored hair, and the male had black hair that was long and neatly combed. The male stared at me with the biggest brightest smile. I went to walk over to him because he was so welcoming in energy. My mother yelled at me for walking away from her. She asked me who I was walking to. I realized that she didn't see them. I remember saying that I was walking to the man, and she said there was nobody there and to not try to walk away again or I might get lost. I still wanted to walk up to the man, but he waved his hand as if to say no, stay with your mother. So I obeyed. I now realize who that person was. It was the mischevious Loki coming in to say hello.

          I also remember another time when I was about 3 or 4 years old. It was the day I first saw a rainbow. It was a very large and bright double rainbow, and my mom called me outside to see it. She explained to me the story of the rainbow, and how there are tales of the end of the rainbow being connected to a magical mystical land. I saw a face in the sky that day. It was the face of what I now interpret as Thor. I feel very blessed to have these experiences, and these are just two experiences of times when I felt their presence or saw them. It was a great feeling to finally understand those moments when I first began to really embrace my Pagan path. 

         So I suppose techniqually you could label me a Godspouse of both Loki and Thor. But I don't like the label of something that is so one sided. I don't see myself as a spouse of a God necessarily. I see myself as having a deep intimate connection with Loki and Thor. I deeply connect with many other Gods and Goddesses as well. But it is to Loki and Thor who hold my heart. I have made my own connections to Loki and Thor to the Greek Pantheon. I often wonder if all the Gods and Goddesses can be matched up that way. I won't go into those connections I've made just yet on here. I don't feel now is the time to release that, as I still feel it is something I haven't got all the information about for myself yet. I also do not call Thor by the name of Thor. I call him by a name that I personally know him as, and it's a name that bonds he and I together through an experience a long time ago on earth. If other's are reading this right now, you may not believe me... But that's okay because I know it's true from within my soul. I do refer to Loki as Loke. He has shared with me other names he goes by, but I do prefer the term Loki or Loke. I feel it's partially because of my own name. Melody, take away the Me and leave just the Lody. It sounds very simular to Loki, and I like that. I feel like a best frend connection with Loki for so long. It has only been recently when I have feel a stronger romantic bond with him. By romantic I don't mean sex really, even though that has come up. (I feel nervous about sharing this, but I am going to proceed.) It is about the connection that two souls share, and physical sex doesn't have to be a part of that. It's kind of like when you stare into the eyes of a lover or a partner and just know that you both have a soul bond that goes deeper then flesh and bone. It penetrates the soul, and is a link that forever bonds the two. That's what I feel with Loki, and it's a beautiful feeling to have such a connection with another soul. I call them souls, because they are souls, just like us. It just so happens that they have a higher ranking in a way. So I honor that. 

         When it comes to Thor I feel the most powerful sense of wonder, lust, enjoyment, happiness, and pure fascination when I connect with him. When I see him in dreams and astral travels I feel so deeply impacted by the gaze from his eyes. In the eddas it says that Thor has fierce of fiery eyes. That's so true, because his eyes stab you with wonder. They penetrate your soul with mystery and call out to you. When he looks at you, it's like you're looking into the depth of a blazing star that is brightly shining and so amazingly beautiful. It's powerful with strength and you feel it with every sense of your being. That's what I feel when I connect with Thor. Like I said, you could count me as a Godspouse, but I do not personally define myself as a Godspouse. I take my relationships with the Gods and Goddesses that I honor very seriously. 

          Just the other day I was connecting with Thor in my spirit journal. My spirit journal is a journal I have where I write out messages to the spirit realm entities I connect with, such as my spirit guides, the Gods and Goddesses, etc. I also channel messages and log them in there. So I have been led by Thor lately to come to terms with my own opinion of marriage. I feel like I dislike marriage because of my parents marriage. They're married still, but might as well not be. In all of my years here on earth so far I have never saw them me loving to one another. They both have their own reasons and their own faults, but it's something that I feel negative about. When I think of marriage I think of their relationship, and I feel as though I don't want any parts of marriage because of that. I think that's a main reason why I don't want to define myself as a spouse, I don't even like to refer to my life partner, my husband, as a spouse. Techniqually we are not married, but we have been together for over 10 years. We both consider one another as a spouse, and I call him my husband and he calls me his wife. But the actual marriage hasn't happened, and I never wanted a marriage when I was growing up. I certainly didn't want a big wedding. I thought if anything I would elope or something like that. But I realize my reluctance to go get that marriage paper with my husband is because of my negative attachments to the idea of marriage. This has also hindered my deep connection with Thor. Now in recent years with my bonding to Loki, it's also hard. I've told him that I would rather us remain as best friends and perhaps talk about the idea of a deeper bond later. I feel like Thor and my husband Dwayne is enough for now. But I know he wants that deeper bond. I feel it everytime I connect with him, whether it's in my spirit journal, dreams, astral travels, etc. I feel it, and I feel I owe it to myself to figure out how to take away that negative attachment to the label of marriage. I like the idea of being bonded with another soul. I like the idea of life long bondings and partnerships. But it's when the term marriage comes in when I begin to cringe. So I thank Thor for helping me to realize that I have this negative attachment to marriage. I have discussed with my mother about why she's so negative, and it led to intense arguments, most of which has now passed. I know my dad's side. I know why their marriage didn't work. They got married young and for the wrong reasons, but were both too poor to really seperate. My mother has deep emotional issues when it comes to depression. My dad has his own issues, and also Bi-Polar. No I didn't grow up in an abusive childhood, but my dad cussed and yelled all the time. To this day I still dislike the fuck out of aggression and confrontation. But I have got better with dealing with that also thanks to Loki, Thor, and Dwayne my life partner-husband. 

           So this post has turned into my own life issues, but I wanted to include that because that's how deeply bonded I feel with Thor and Loki. They help me out in so many ways, and to me that is intimacy. That is romance. That is love. That is marriage. Being best friends with someone and feeling that deep soul bond. It's not about sex. You can fuck whoever you want, sex isn't even in this for me... even though it has come up and it's a nice thing to experience. But to me marriage and being a spouse, even a Godspouse... it's about being best friends and deeply knowing that other person. It's about partnership and an eternal bonding. What do you think? Leave a comment below, and don't forget to subscribe to this blog using the side panel tab to the right of the page. If you don't see the side panel tab then you're probably viewing this blog on a mobile device. Scroll all the way down to the bottom of the page and click to view the website as the desktop version. Then you'll see the side panel to subscribe to this blog.

Cosmic Blessings


Sunday, November 19, 2017

Reaching Into My Soul Self - Thoughts


             I yearn to see more when I dream and astral travel. The urge to explore sometimes overcomes me, and it feels like my soul is going to burst out of my body. Like my body is a cage keeping me from my true soul potential. Being tied to this body in this life is a lot to realize when you awaken spiritually. The process of spiritual awakening is ongoing, of coarse. But I have realized, through astral traveling and lucid dreaming, that I have a lot of soul potential. We all do. But once you realize the limitless energy of the soul, and then try to live your physical life... it's hard. I can understand if you think I'm batty. But aren't we all crazy a little? That's what I like to think. Embrace all sides of yourself my loves!! Anyway, the soul within me wants to fly away and break the chains to this body. Don't get me wrong, I like being here alive on earth. I like my life. I like my body. I feel like I have a good amount of self confidence. But the search for the limitless energy of the soul is ceasing in the bounds of physical flesh. It seems equivelent to keeping a bird in a cage. All the bird wants to do if fly, and someday that cage door will open and the bird will be free. That's how I feel.
            I look at the people in my life, and I see how the worries and stress of life get to them. Honestly, it get's to me too. I'm only human right now. As much as I'd like to be more, right now I am bound to this lifetime. So it's something I am working on. I have problems connecting with other people, like friends. Sometimes... not always. I find myself wanting to hermit myself, but I am a Cancer in the Zodiac. So the crab in me wants to hide sometimes. But I feel like connecting with friends. Recently I've been reaching out to friends who I've found myself sheltering away from. It's nice chatting with them about random things. My two friends Cheryl and Theresa are supposed to be visiting Delaware this December. They're twins and live with their family. Cheryl has two daughters. So I'll get to see all of them as long as their plans follow through properly. That'll be nice. I have been talking with another friend also, but she seems like she's hermited herself too. I fixed a citrine pendant of hers that broke, and I need to give it back. She lives right up the road, and since we're both kind of hermit bound, we keep procrastinating the meet up. Haha, got to laugh at this shit sometimes. The hermit bug is going around!! All we can do is try in this life though.
        I have been feeling a lot more connected to my spirit family. These are the one's whom are in the spirit realms who I connect with frequently. I have been hearing the call from my spirit guides Amoris and Lorelei reminding me that they're there. I look at them like they're my sisters. Thor and Loki have been reaching out much more too. I have felt them near, got signs of their presence, and had astral experiences and lucid dreams with them. It's a great thing, and I feel honored that they're stepping up with their signs a bit more. I take it as them trying to help me see that I do have a lot of people who love me, even in the spirit realms. That is nice, because sometimes I do feel depression. It's not a good thing to feel, but I take that and try to grow from it. I feel the growth, and I am happy for it. I also have been feeling increased peace and clarity within my psychic work, which is a good thing; because I can help others a lot more with that increase. I do psychic readings daily, with the exception of Wednesday, Saturday, and Sunday. I reserve those days for cleansing to better connect with the spirit realms. I take those days to do a lot of my own spirit work. Thus, I am writing this blog post on a Sunday, my own spirit work. I count these posts as spirit work, because I learn from it. It gets the thoughts out of my mind so that I can make more sense from them. Hail to the Aesir and Vanir for assisting me. Hail to Loki for being a loving guide and friend. I feel my heart explode with love for you, and I see you for you as you see me for me. Hail to Thor for being that ever strong presence in my life. Reminding me that I am a strong person too, and reminding me of my divine connections. Thank you for reminding me of my inner Goddess. Hail to you for being such an ever present entity in my life, my flame fires within for you and Loki. Poseidon and Ares, forever truth. Hail to Odin for speaking to me the other day, thanks for the visit. Hail to me means honor, love, and appriciation. So hail to all who is reading this right now. 

Saturday, November 18, 2017

My Pursuit Of Pagan Friendship


             I don't understand friendships here on earth. It's something that I must have lost a luster for, because I am just so over trying to keep friendships going. Whether they be in person friendships or distant friendships. I think my beliefs is a part of what pushes people away, but my beliefs are my own and I guess I can see how that's a lot to take in. I am not extremely open with people about my beliefs, but when I do open up... slowly people end up pushing away from me. It's like what the fuck?! To explain myself properly, I guess I have to be open a little about some of my beliefs. I have a very Pagan lifestyle. It's not a religion to me, it's much more then a belief, it's a way of life for me and my husband. No it's not about casting spells and shit like that, which is fine, but we only do those things when needed. Such as to defend ourselves, protect or cleanse ourselves, or to manifest something. 

           My Pagan side has got me to a point where I try to keep my spiritual focus in daily life. I also channel entities sometimes, not always though, but sometimes. Entities such as Deities, Demons, Angels, Other Dimensional Beings, "Aliens", etc. Yes I said Demons. I like to try to see the good in everyone, because honestly it's about balance. Yin and Yang. I have had positive experiences with entities most commonly known as Demons. But that is also something that I don't discuss with people much, but when I do become open about it... people end up pushing themselves away from me. Christian Fear? Maybe... I don't really know. But what I do know is that I'm tired of trying to hide what I feel. 

           So I'm going to be straight up as I can from now on. And thus I am writing this blog post, being straight up with whoever might read it. I connect with all types of entities, and whether they're catagorized as demons or something else, I have had positive experiences with those that I do communicate with. I don't open myself up to just anyone, there's a process, but those that I do let in are positive ones for the most part. So no I'm not a Satanist, even though I wouldn't mind that label. If I'm going to be straight up, I don't feel Satan is all that bad. What was he guilty of in the bible? Gifting humans with the knowledge of good and evil, oh my God such a terrible thing right? In my opinion no. I think having that knowledge is great, as it helps us to really have free will and to grow as souls. But my point here is that I am not an "evil" person. I try to be friendly with whoever I come into contact with... unless I woke up on the wrong side of the bed that day or something. But for the most part I am a positive person. People have defined me as giddy, spacey, and sometimes even bubbley in my personality. I am a loving person, I try to give love as much as I can. Of coarse I have days when I feel like saying fuck the world, but who doesn't? It's like this... I try to be as genuine to myself as I can, and yes sometimes I fall short to that goal. But the thing is I try, and what more can I do then try? I try to help people as much as I can with my Psychic Readings I offer on my DarkSecretCreations shops. I try to share hope with people when I can. I try to see into the silver lining of situations. I try to learn from my mistakes and use those lessons to grow. I try not to fear beings just because of a Christian theory says I should fear them. I try to think outside the box and I try to follow my own path, not the path that is already laid out in front of me. I try to dance to my own Melody, haha pun intended. You get the gyst. 

           But friendships in this world is hard to maintain, because of each person's paths differ so greatly sometimes. Where is my kindred soul? Yes I feel very connected to my spirit family and the enitities I connect with through channeling and divination. Yes I feel connected to my immediate family and my husband. I even feel connected deeply to my pets. But I desire to have loving meaningful friendships in the physical. Why is that so hard when you're on a spiritual path? I have no clue... My husband feels the same. He wishes we had more physical friends of like interests, but thats so hard because we don't follow a predetermined path. We pave our own way spiritually, and it's hard to find people of like interests. Especially when you're open to communing with Demon figures, haha. So at least he and I found one another. I wonder has anyone else had these issues with friendship if you pave your own spiritual path? The saying goes, some friends come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. I've had the reason friends. I've had the season friends. Where the lifetime friends? 

          I don't want anyone thinking I'm friendless. I have childhood friends I still talk to. They're great. I also have another I talk with who is sort of Pagan, a bit in between Pagan and Christian. Two live far away, one lives up the road but is often busy with her child. I honor those friendships that I do have. But I'm talking about that kindred soul sort of friend. One that I feel I can be completely open with and share stuff with. Yes I feel that way with my husband and for that I am greatly lucky. But it would be kind of awesome to have a female friend to talk about spiritual stuff with and to hang out with. One that won't judge me for my beliefs or be afraid I'll send them negative entities or energies. One that might even share some of my beliefs, and we can learn from one another. One that lives relatively close so we can meet up or just chill with. But I must admit, I am a bit of a hermit. So I probably do not help the situation with that aspect of myself. I am just venting today. Thanks for reading. 


Cosmic Blessings, Melody

Sunday, October 29, 2017

Astral Sex


          Imagine you're in an astral projection and you're traveling to the spaces outside of earth. You're venturing out into other planets, other realms, and other dimensions. Then you come across an individual who you feel deeply drawn to. Someone who makes your soul feel like it's flying. Someone who makes your energy surge. You feel deeply attracted to this individual, and you both find out that you're deeply bonded. You're soulmates, and then you both want to begin an intimate connection. 

         There is one main topic of this post, and it's Astral Sex. Sex is a topic that some don't want to discuss, but it's a part of everyday life. Even those who are dedicated to celibasy or being sexually abstinent have surely had at least a few thoughts on the topic of sex. But this isn't about physical sex. It's about something known as astral sex. Astral sex basically is an experience with another spiritual being while you are astral traveling. The term sex can be misleading, at is tends to paint the image of physical bodies doing sexual acts, but astral sex is more like an energy exchange. It can be a very intense and intimate experience. While astral sex can be enjoyable, you have to take it as seriously as you would any other type of sex.

         Before we go in deeper I want to explain what an out of body experience can be defined as. It is the process of separating the consciousness, spirit, from the physical body, such that the person and world are observed from outside of the body. Out of body experiences are also known as astral projections. There are several ways people perceive an out of body experience, including dreams, daydreams, and memories. People have reported having out of body experiences while under the influence of drugs or induced by some sort of trauma, as well as near death experiences. Astral projection is taught through books, the internet, and religious techniques. An out of body experience is said to be clearer than a dream or daydream. Those who practice astral projections claim that their senses are enhanced, allowing them to see and feel with more clarity and without physical constraint. This has been practiced for many years in several different cultures. When you are astral projecting, your spirit leaves the body and is capable of traveling through other planes of existence. You're always connected with your body as long as your body remains alive and in working order. It's not as fearly as someone first hearing about it might think. In this state, you can meet with another being. The possibilities are literally endless. The beings you may meet may be another living person who is astral traveling, it may be the spirit of someone between physical incarnations, or it may be a non-human spirit. A non-human spirit can be catagorized as higher dimensional beings, lower dimensional beings, alien beings, and even beings we might catagorize here on earth as Gods or Goddesses, etc.

          Astral sex can be enjoyable, but you have to take it as seriously as you would any other type of sex. Also another important thing to remember it that the transference of energy can have an arousing effect on your physical body, but it takes place on a spiritual level. The energy exchange can be an experience of pure love and joy, it can be tingly and playful, it can be refreshing and rejuvenating, or if not careful it can be unhealthy.

            One of the most important things to consider if you want to have astral sex is who your partner should be. Ideally, it should be an entity of equivalent or higher vibrations. Some people who practice Godspousery will use this as a way to connect with their spouse(s). It should be a being that makes you feel safe and comfortable, and there should be mutual respect and care in your union so that it’s mutually beneficial. Some people seek out soul mates, twin souls or twin flames while astral projecting. You may have not met this individual in this world, but because of your inherent spiritual connection you may be able to find each other on the astral plane. It can be hard to find someone who doesn’t practice astral projection deliberately, but don’t give up as everyone naturally astral projects at one time or another, sometimes it even occurs in dreams. If you keep looking, eventually you’ll be drawn to the person. If you have a lover in this life who you can’t be with physically because you’re separated by great distances, you can agree to meet in the astral plane for an encounter. In this case, it is important for both partners to be skilled at astral travel, but it’s a wonderful way for two people in a long distance relationship to enjoy each other’s affection.

         It's not advisable to initiate this type of connection with just anyone. There are lower vibrational entities, both human and non-human, that may look to have astral sex with you simply to feed off your energy. Some of these individuals can be very tricky and manipulative. This isn't to scare you off, but it's something that must be said in this topic. When you meet these sort of individuals it isn’t so much as an energy exchange as it is an energy rape, or like a psychic vampire. There’s nothing mutual or beneficial about it, and such an entity can simply leech you of your energy, and you’ll come back to your body feeling drained, confused and depressed. It’s best to avoid encounters with such beings. If you do feel one is trying to force you into an encounter you don’t want, you can call on your spirit guides or other trusted members of your soul group for assistance. You can also snap your consciousness back to your body just by thinking of being inside of it again. Astral sex is not good or bad in itself; it’s more about making smart choices to ensure a pleasurable, healthy, and beneficial experience.In other situations this is non-consensual and the living person may not know what is happening. There are beings known as Succubi and Incubi, but there are many more that can do this. Also there is living people who are able to astral project and bilocate who are able to have sex with people astrally or to merely drain people's energies astrally, and this is typically done to the person who is getting drained during sleep. Again I don't want to scare you off of this topic, but we must take the good with the bad. I'm not saying you will go into astral projection and have bad experiences. In fact, you shouldn't go into an astral projection with fear as you may attract these sorts of individuals.

          There are a few ways that spirit sex occurs, and the first we will discuss is through the willing participation of two energy workers who are alive. This means that they have bodies they return to. They would meet in a specific place, or in specific places known for sexual encounters. This may be a group of people who have all read the same books or have the same abilities who found one another or are vibrationally attracted to each who have meetups. This may also be between two living people who maintain a relationship and are exclusive who designate a spot to meet for sexual relations. 

          One of the other ways this happens is to have a Spirit Relationship with a Deity. Like I mentioned about about the topic of Godspousery. In certain beliefs there are ceremonies and rituals performed so that a living person becomes wed to a deity (God or Goddess). This is actually as complicated as a real marriage, because the deity may want to be number one in the living persons life. It depends on the relationship between the person and the deity. But this is a common practice amond those who participate in spirit marriages, spirit relationships, or godspousing. 

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Cosmic Blessings

Sunday, October 22, 2017

My Relationships Both on the Physical and Spiritual Realms


          I feel a quiet vibration of love in my soul for the souls who have my heart. I want to elaborate on the beings in my life that I feel most connected to. This is not just in one particular sense. This is in a wide variety of ways. I have a lot of love for my husband in this life. His name is Dwayne. We have our natural ups and downs, but for the most part I feel as though our relationship is extremely strong. I feel as though he is my best friend In this physical life. I feel honored to have that. I am limited on the physical friendships in this lifetime. I casually chat with a few, but it's at a point where I would categorize it as acquaintances, and not friendships. I do still have a lot of love for them, but you know how life sometimes gradually moves people apart. That's what has happened between me and a lot of my friends that I was once close to. But that's okay because I have gotten to a point in my life where I am relatively secluded sometimes. I'm not saying that I am an introvert. Because I'm not. I don't see myself as an introvert. But what I do see myself as somebody who likes their space sometimes. I live with family. So we have a full household and it can be annoying sometimes. But a part of me also likes that, because it does instill a sense of togetherness. Even though we may not always act like it. I am not close with any of my cousins, Aunts, Uncles. All of my grandparents are deceased. So that type of family I am not close to. I am very close to my husband Dwayne's Uncle. Dwayne looks at his uncle that lives close to us as a father. So we are very close to him. He is more of an uncle to me than my actual flesh-and-blood uncle's. How do you like that for blood over water? A few of his cousins are more like cousins to me than my own cousins. Now I do want to say that I do have one cousin who I do talk with at times. I look at him like a friend, but we recently have not talked, but I know that we are still friends. So those are the main physical people in my life that are close to me and who I appriciate..
 
            I want to now elaborate on those in my life who are not in a physical sense. I am something that you might categorize as a spirit worker. This is something I've done since I was a kid and didn't even know at the time what it was. I really prefer the term Spirit worker over Spirit keeper. I do not keep spirits. That it is almost like slavery. I have friendships, deep bonded relationships with the beings in the spirit realm that I feel close to. So I could categorize myself as a spirit worker. I have crossed over Spirits before, and I do offer a home and a safe space to any spirits who are caught in between worlds. I do have a layer of protection and boundaries on that though. New spirits who wish to enter go through a process to be sure they're not the manipulative ones. This process is done by my spirit team. Any lost spirits who have not crossed over, I offer them a safe loving place to be until they feel like they are ready to cross over. This is a part of my everyday life. So I do help human Souls who have not fully crossed over. I am also in communication with a lot of other different types of entities. Djinns are some who I feel deeply loving towards. I make it a point to free certain ones that have been and trapped or enslaved as wish granters. It's something that I feel very proud of, and it's something that I'm not going to elaborate more on right now. But I feel as though that is a part of my soul Mission. All of this spirit Work as a part of my soul mission. I also have a deep connection certain mythological entities. I am connected with a Dragon Spirit, and his name if Amartis. (It sounds like Aye-mart-ease) I Love to learn more about other dimensions and other realmss. It's something that I feel deeply passionate about. So other realm entities are beings who I am always open to communicating with. I reach out my hand in Friendship to a lot of them. Normally they also reach their hand out in friendship back to me.

           Something else I do is something some of you might stop and automatically call me a sinner. Respectfully said... you can take your sin accusations and shove them up your ass. I also communicate with demons. I have communicated with the spirits most commonly known on Earth that has Satan and Lucifer. No I don't go to black cults, no I don't want to murder people or unnecessarily curse other people. No I don't do any of those cliche Satanic bullshit. I feel that's not accurate, as many of the inhabitants of Hell (Helhiem, The Underworld) that I have connected with are not evil and don't wish evil things on others unless it's needed for whatever reason that may be. That is a complex topic which I am not going to elaborate more on right now. But I have communicated with them, and I believe that they are not as evil as Christian mythology likes to make them seem. I have also communicated with a lot of angelic figures, I have connected with Jesus and Mary Magdalene before. I have talked with Yahweh and Asherah. So I am an eclectic spiritual person. I don't just take witchcraft and channeling and place an angelic stamp on it. I like to dig deep and understand all aspects. All realms. All worlds. I want to explore and learn as much knowledge as I can. To me that means being prepared, taking my protection shield and spirit family, and digging deep into what many would consider to be the darkside. But if you're going to learn how to overcome evil and darkness... I think one needs to venture into that darkness and embrace it sometimes. Someone I know said to me, you have to go through the darkness to see the light. Mainly I am someone who always looks for the good in people. I may have my annoyed opinions about people who may frustrate me or organizations that might frustrate me. For example Christianity. But I know they do a lot of good too, and I see that. So I don't want anyone thinking I'm looking for hate. That's not true. I look for good, but in the pursuit of true goodness... sometimes you find manipulation masking themselves as good. So I try to be careful, because there is so much manipulation in our society now days. We need a manipulation filter... that's something I'm trying to find through my astral and spirit journeys.

        I also connect deeply with many Gods and Goddesses of different pantheons. One more frequent pantheon I connect with is the Norse Gods and Goddesses. But I feel very connected to the Greek Gods and Goddesses too. I am deeply connected to the spirit most commonly known on earth as Thor and Poseidon as well. I also connect with Loki and recently Ares. I have a soul bond with Sif, Demeter and Amphitrite. I also work a lot with Freya and Odr. Hakates is someone I have bonded with before as well through a particular scenerio that played out through a series of astral travels. You may not believe a word I'm saying, and guess what.... You don't have to. I know what I say is true in my own journey. I suppose you could say I am romantically bonded with the spirits most commonly refered to on earth as Thor and Loki. But that's something I'll come out more with later. I feel that deserves it's own blogpost. Now I am sort of excited to say it... I think this posting of my journey is helping me come to terms with who I really am. Good job Melody!! (I pat myself on the back.)

        I think that's where I am going to end this. It's a bit rambley, but I think it's good that I am getting all of this out. So if you enjoyed my thoughts, share your thoughts below. What do you feel your life journey is about here on earth? Are you a spirit worked, if so how do you go about it? Do you look into both the dark and the light, if so leave a comment and share your opinion. Be mindful that I monitor all comments, and hate bashing comments will be deleted. Subscribe to this blog through the side panel of the website, and have a beautiful day.

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Saturday, October 21, 2017

My Thoughts On Organized Religion Verses Free Thinking Spirituality

        Lately I have been feeling the pull of the Norse gods who I connect with on a regular basis. However, I have been intuitively guided to the Greek gods. I am somebody who generally does not like labels. I don't really always want to be defined by a label. I feel as though we are more than that. For example, I call myself a Pagan. But I am a lot more than a Pagan. You get what I'm saying? So I don't even like calling them the Norse gods, but here on earth you cannot really get around saying that when you're going to be talking about it with other people. They are not going to know what you're talking about unless you refer to them under their Pantheon name here on Earth. In my own personal workings with the Gods and Goddesses, I try to see beyond the Earthly explanation. I do give consideration to the mythologies and the history of those Gods and Goddesses that we do have here on Earth. But I also try to dig even deeper. So what I'm getting at here is I try to connect and see who blends in with who. What I mean by this is for example can Odin of the Norse gods be attributed to Zeus of the Greek gods?

          I have made my own connections between patheons. However, I'm not necessarily ready to discuss those just yet. I am not sure if I do want to discuss those. I like to give consideration to the Gods and the Goddesses for unleashing information when I do request certain information. So I wait for them to intuitively guide me on what to share. Also it's about me trying to embrace this and to really bring it out forward. This is not something new in my life. I want to be very clear about that. I am not new to the Norse Gods and Goddesses. I'm not new to Paganism. I am not new to witchcraft. I am not new to thinking beyond the physical plane. When I was growing up speculating on ideas was a common thing. I remember discussing whether or not reincarnation was real with my mother. I remember talking about whether or not aliens exist and sitting outside trying to watch out for the alien spaceships when I was little. So as you can tell, I did not grow up in a strict Christian household. I feel as though that was beneficial for me, because I did not grow up with that restriction. I do feel Christianity can present itself as a restriction to spirituality sometimes. I know that other people are going to disagree with me on that topic, and you have the right to disagree with me. Disagree with me all you want. But for me I feel as though I am happy that I did not grow up in a strict Christian household. So thinking in a pagan perspective has been something that I have done since I was little. I feel as though this is one of the reasons why I try to dig deeper and not just accept the exterior layer of the Gods. I want to see deeper.

        Of course there are people who feels like the Gods and Goddesses of different pantheon's are not real. There are people who feel as though the idea of them are real, but they are not actual physical Souls. I am somebody who believes in the fact that they are physical souls. To me that is a fact. That's what I feel, because of my own working with them. They seem very real, and if I was connecting with a generalized energy of the Norse gods. If I was connecting with a generalized energy that presented itself as Odin on Earth, I feel as though it would not be as strong as it shows itself. I look at them like they are not necessarily any different from me. I see myself as somebody who is real. I see myself as somebody who is extremely real in this physical plane of existence. I feel and see myself as somebody who is with a soul, and when my body dies I will move on as my soul self. I see myself as somebody with a soul identity, a soul identity that is just as real as my physical body. That's what I believe. So if I believe that the gods and goddesses are just a generalized energy, and they are not actual real individuals. What does that say for us here on Earth? What does that say for me? So that is my understanding of it. I see myself as somebody who is very real connecting with an entity that is ascended and can label themselves aa a God. So I am somebody real who is connecting with another very real entity. It just so happens we are on different levels of existence. They are on a spirit level or a higher-dimensional level, and I am on a physical dimensional level. That's how I see it.

        As you can see this blog post is extremely random, but it's just things that have been on my mind lately. I have been reading different articles from other people who connect with the gods and goddesses, and I see how individual everyone's relationship is with the gods and goddesses. I see how individual each path is, and I see Christianity as being one humongous Highway forcing people to stay on that Highway. So is this blog post going to be about Christianity? Maybe it is, I don't know. I'm just going with the flow. But that's how I feel. I feel as though Christianity is a huge Highway forcing people to stay on that Highway, and to stay in the lane that they feel is best. But when I look at different pagans I see a lot of varied Pathways to the Gods in the Goddesses. I see varied Pathways to individual belief systems, and what is a belief system? It is an individual thing. But I feel Christianity broadens it into something bad is very much not individual. I feel as though that is why some people feel as though the Christian God doesn't listen to them. It's because many are not connecting with their God on an individual scale. They connect with the God that the churches tell you about. They're connecting with that God in the way that other's connect, and it's not personal. Again with Christianity... 

        Anyway that is my belief on the topic of religion. So I suppose this is getting into the topic of organized religion versus free thinking spirituality. I feel as though I am very much on the free thinking spirituality, or personalized religion. Whatever you want to label it. Even though organisation can be good in beliefs, but the thing is connecting with the gods and goddesses is a very individual thing. How I connect with the gods and goddesses may be different from how you connect, and that's a very okay thing. It's perfectly fine. I also think that different belief systems here on Earth are here for a reason. So for example, some people will be guided to Christianity, and Christianity may work perfectly well for their own vibration. It may be perfect for them. But Christianity may not be perfect for somebody else. So maybe Muslim beliefs will be perfect for this group, Hindu beliefs will be perfect for that group, Pagan belief will be perfect for this other group. But we see people transitioning religions all the time. I ask myself why is this? I feel this is because whatever religion we are drawn to is that which matches our own current understanding and vibratory rate. So it matches our energy vibration so that we can comprehend what messages are in that religion at that time. But when we change our vibrational levels, and when we grow and broaden our minds, it may lead us to different religious beliefs. Think of this like broadening your perspective. It's not necessarily leaving a belief behind, but it's adding on to it. At least that's how I feel. Because I still believe that Jesus was there and he did some amazing things for Humanity. I still believe in Satan and the Christian God. I believe, but I have added on to my beliefs since then. That's the difference. I have brought in my perspective to the Norse gods and goddesses and the Greek gods and goddesses. I am slowly beginning to wonder about the African Gods and the Celtic Gods. I have researched into the Sumerian and Egyptian Gods. It's all very fascinating, and this is what I am drawn to. I want to dig deep into all of this... Unlimited spiritual growth. That's how I see this. It awakens my soul. It gets me so excited. 

        So that's mainly where I'm going to stop this blog post. I will be back here with some more of my thoughts when the moment hits. If you like what I have to say and if you found this blog post interesting then please find the side panels to my website. To the left and to the right there are areas where you can subscribe. So subscribe and bookmark this website. I also do psychic readings, I also have a metaphysical shop with my Husband where there's a lot of metaphysical tools on there. Tools such as enchanted items, pendulums, pendulum boards, we even have jewelry. You can find those links below. But you can also find them above in the tab section. I hope my random thoughts somehow help you. Perhaps it will awaken you to look within yourself. Perhaps it won't do nothing for you at all except for two maybe humor you for some reason. Whatever the reason, thank you for reading my words through their entirety. Speak with you again soon. Cosmic blessings to all.


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Thursday, October 12, 2017

Godspousery, My Thoughts On Godspousing & How Love Goes Beyond The Physical

Godspousery, My Thoughts On Godspousing & How Love Goes Beyond The Physical

        Hello everyone, this is Melody. I have been contemplating Godspousery. I'm someone who never wanted to get married really or at least have a big wedding. I am someone who thinks that marriage here on earth is a piece of paper and what truly matters is the bonds of the heart. So the topic of Godspousing at first I associated with marriage, but I realize now that it's much deeper then that. This is a topic that I feel is something I want to go deeper into. So stay tuned for a more in depth post on this topic. Godspousing or God courting, is a practice when a person goes through a process and takes on a God or Goddess as their spouse. These are people who sometimes have intimate, often sexual, relationships with deities.  These relationships are often extremely intense. This is a topic critizied by many. However, this is not a new concept.  Christians have been doing it for centuries.  Nuns are the sworn Brides of Christ, and they even have a wedding ceremony as part of their initiation. The difference, of course, is that their relationship is not sexual. The gods have lain with mortals in many cultures. Look at Zeus in Greek Mythology as an example. However, I have also seen some who had deep soul connections with entities that you wouldn't label a God or Goddess such as djinns, fairies, elves, deceased humans, other world entiites (aliens), etc.

          To me personally I think that in it's most purest form it is a devotion to a God above all else. It is really not that uncommon, it's just usually called something else. I believe it to be a spiritual devotion. Whatever religion, pantheon, God or Goddess people worship, there's always an intense and very personal relationship between a person and the god they honor. The practice is likely to be different for everyone. It is not that strange to see religions or beliefs that have it's adepts marry a diety or more. A version or this has been done in Mesopotamia and anceint egypt as well. In Haitian Vodou and Santeria it is sometimes believed practices that a person may marry a diety or have a simple relationship with the deity. Usually it is the spirit or deity that calls that person to get married to them and it is usually confirmed by divination, after that there is a ceremony that is performed and the person is thus married to that particular diety. It is believed that the diety speaks with that person through dreams, astral realms, etc. often giving advices and other things.

         Most common Godspouses that I have come across are devoted to Loki of the Norse Gods. There has been others though such as Thor, Odin, Freya. and even Fenrir of the Norse Pantheon. I am sure there are other's, such as in Greek with Zeus and Poseidon. But the most common one's I have come across is those in the Norse Pantheon. Some of these beliefs has come into popularity after the Marvel movies with Thor and Loki in them. But it is a mistake to assume that all devotees are just fangirl or fanboy scenerios. I am sure there are some who do it because of the movies or their attraction to the actors. But there are many who take this practice very seriously, and many who have done so even before the movies. But in my opinion, the Marvel movies have awakened a popularity in the Norse Gods and Goddesses, and I am very happy about that because that means more people learning about the rich culture of the very real Gods and Goddesses of Norse Mythology. I personally do not prefer labels, but I think the idea of Godspousing is a very nice one. I know I feel a deep connection to many Gods and Goddesses, but one that stands out above many is Thor and Poseidon. So I wouldn't detest to label myself a Godspouse to Thor or Poseidon, because it doesn't matter what label I choose. I love them so very deeply. I do deeply honor the Gods and Goddesses of Norse and Greek Mythology, but those aren't the only ones I do honor. However, they are the one's most frequent I connect with. They are the one's which feel more at home to me. I think it is a beautiful act if taken seriously. And most who do take this practice very seriously would agree that it's not sexually driven. It's because they feel such a deep bond with that God or Goddess. No matter what the label or practice, people have had deep devotions to particular Gods and Goddesses for ages.

          So this is a new label for a very old practice, and in a higher perspective, it is merely one way to honor and have a relationship with a God or Goddess. But there are so many who do honor their chose Gods and Goddesses as other labels. I've come into contact with people who look at Odin as a father or brother figure, look at Freya as a sister figure, etc. I came across one female who looked at Loki as a father figure, and felt very drawn to the Fenrir wolf (whom is Loki's child in Norse Mythology) as a husband figure. I've come across many Loki devotees, also know as Lokeans. Some of these devotees, Godspouses, etc. at times get very jealous or upset with others. Which personally I feel that's not fair either. All should come together in love and harmony and have respect for our fellow humans, no matter their belief or practice.

          However, I do want to be clear that when you first start researching the term Godspouse, Godspousing, or Godspousery you'll notice that most of the ones are dedicated to the Norse God Loki. But if you look deeper you'll see many other people who have claimed Spousery with other Gods or Goddesses. Maybe there aren't as many people who are Spoused to other Gods or Goddesses who openly post about it, because they do not want to be open about it, are afraiding to be ridiculed, or their God/Goddess may not want them to be open about it. So like I said before, it's in the history if we look hard enough. So this isn't just a new aged idea.


         It's true some people don't have the typical lovers type or marriage with their God or Goddess. Some have sibling like relationships, or parent/child like relationships. This is a form of dedication to the God or Goddess.  They still are dedicated and in some form of relationship in their own right to their God or Goddess. So not all dedications are of a lovers based interest, or a sexual one. I did want to point that out, because you don't have to be a Godspouse to be lovingly connected with a God or Goddess, and there are many who have connections with more then one God or Goddess.

         So with me personally I feel connected deeply to Thor and Poseidon, but also Loki is someone I consider a best friend and sometimes I feel we have a deeper more romantic connection. I want to be clear that this isn't a sexual thing for me personally. Do you get married to a wife or husband to have sex with them? No, even though sex might be a part of it. But if you look at your romantic partner and if I ask if you're with that partner just to have sex, would you say yes? No I would assume you'd say something like, No I love my partner because we share a deep bond. Well the same goes with those who consider themselves Godspouses or those who have a deep devotion to a particular God or Goddess. If you know me you'll see that I'm married with a guy name Dwayne. We've been together for about 11 years, and we are in love. So Godspouses aren't just those who are single and lonely. Dwayne has his own connections with his own Gods and Goddesses who he feels guided to. I won't go into that because that's up to him to discuss on his own or not, but he does have his own connections. There's absolutely no jealousy between us about this topic, and I have come across other couples who feel the same. They're deeply in love, but also feel pulled by a particular God or Goddess.

          So you can probably expect me to discuss more about this topic or about my own connection with the Gods and Goddesses that I connect with. I also do not see them as Gods and Goddesses, even though that's a common label that they're reffered to as here on earth. They're spirits who are in a higher dimensional state. They're in a higher realm, and they have more power because they're not limited to physical flesh like us in the third dimension here on earth. So I don't see them as necessarily better, but I do see them as more knowledgable and I honor that deeply about them. I connect with Thor and Poseidon daily, even though I'm a bit newer to my Poseidon connection. It's something I will not go too deep into here publically. I have other names I refer to them as, and I only share their popular earthly names here for reference. If I said the other names you wouldn't know who I was talking about. But does that make me better then you? Nope. I am just someone who likes to dig very deep, and I don't settle for just earth history. I think that's where I am going to end it for today. Stay tuned for more, and subscribe to this blog in the side panels to the left and right.