Lately I have been drawn to many different things, but I must remind myself to stay focused. I need to keep my mind at rest sometimes, because I am always thinking about something. I recently realized why my husband is much better at getting into a deeper meditation, it's because his mind isn't always thinking something. I do not mean that as a blast at men either. It's easier for him to clear his mind I suppose, and that is something that I don't always do. I could be watching a favorite movie and my mind is thinking about something else, even though it's a movie I enjoy. So lately my spirit team have been helping me with this. Thor has assisted me by reminding me to stay focused. He reminds me that there is only so much one person can do at a time or think about at a time, and I need to find my balance. I am one who daydreams a lot too, always have been.
Funny story, when I was in 9th grade there was a guy in my Radio TV Commercial Writing class who thought I was on drugs and always high because I would stare at the wall zoned out for long periods of time. Believe me or not, I've never taken drugs. During that time I was a completely different person in my actions. I was very shy and withdrawn and went through a lot of depression. So daydreaming and such was a means of escape I suppose. But now it's not like I am daydreaming to escape reality... These thoughts I think about are vast and wide. Sometimes I think about life issues, the world, humanity, our civilization, the higher realms, my past lives, my soul missions, my connection with my spirit team. I think about their lives and their experiences. The list goes on and on. I have recently realized that my oldest brother has the same issues, but to an extreme. He will stress and worry himself into a damn near panic. He is not a chill person. I would catagorize myself normally as a chill person. I'm very laid back, admittedly at times lazy lol, and just a relaxed individual. But my brother takes his racing thoughts to a point of stress and it pushes people away. But that's all I'll say about him. My point is that I don't want to allow myself to welcome in stress and worry because of those thoughts I am thinking a lot.
Don't get me wrong, they're not negative. Some are from time to time when I think about earth, animals, humanity, daily life issues, etc. But most of them are the types of thoughts one might have when daydreaming with your head in the clouds. That's totally me. And so Thor and my spirit team have been helping me to know when to focus on tasks and when to give time for daydreaming. A balance. I am greatful that I have them to help me.
Over the past two days I have been talking with a female who reached out to me over this blog using the contact me section. She is into Loki and some other deities. She's a nice person. I'm thinking Loki has led her and I to be friends. Over the past year or two I've not had much luck with remaining connected to Loki loving people. Not sure exactly why. I guess we were not vibing. But I thank Loki for leading me to this female for friendship. Speaking of Loki, I have been infrequently reaching out to him. That is another reason I want to balance my thoughts. I have my mind on so many things, and this makes me not have enough time to reach out to all of my spirit team who I love and adore. Loki and all others, I am sorry. I feel I favor Thor. I don't want to, but that's how I feel. I cannot help it. He and I seem to vibe really well. And if you're familiar with me, you'll know in my personal connecting with Thor I do not call him Thor. I call him by a soul name he gave me before. I wanted to mention that, because that's how close I feel to him. Also in no way am I sayin my connection to him or any other deity is better. I am just stating my thoughts here. Got to get them out someway. Thanks for listening.