Past, Present, And Exploration Of Self

        As I sit here contemplating what I want to talk about I come to the realization that this should not be planned. I find myself trying to plan out what I want to talk about either on my YouTube or right here in this blog section. But I cannot plan it out, and it reminds me of life. You cannot plan everything out in life. Plans are good yes, but I'm sure you can agree that plans do not always go according to plan. So I'm going to just speak what's on my mind, and hopefully I get something out of it. Hopefully you get something out of it. 

          So what's been on my mind lately? I've been thinking a lot about the past. And it is good to contemplate on the past. Learning lessons and reflecting on things you've overcome. But it's not good to wallow in the past. It's not good to do so in such a way that it makes you feel like all of the good things are times gone by. Because that will sort of be like a self-fulfilling prophecy. The more you begin to think how good things used to be, the less you begin to appreciate what is currently in your life. I don't want to do that. I think about myself in the work that I do and financially. I think about my spirituality. It seems like a few years ago I had things pretty good. Not that things are not good now. But there has been changes happening, a transitionary part of my life. Moving from one thing to another. I am in a liminal space I suppose you could say. A liminal space is the time between the 'what was' and the 'next.' It is a place of transition, waiting, and not knowing. Liminal space is where all transformation takes place, if we learn to wait and let it form us. That actually is a term that I just realized it the other day. I was talking to a friend of mine and she had gotten a tattoo of a liminal space sigil. I thought it was so cool looking. I looked at it and just vibing with it immediately. So if these are things that I'm going to be researching more into. I love learning about new things spiritually. I love sigil. So definitely I'm going to look more into that. But when I research into what that term meant, liminal space, I realized that this is what I am going through. 

          The other week I came across some of my old journals and I felt like I was connecting so much more on a personal basis a few years ago as opposed to how often I do so on a personal basis for myself now. And all of this has got me to scan my thoughts for limiting beliefs. I do not want to limit myself. So I have been actively being mindful of my thoughts and whether or not they are truly positive thoughts. Because once I actively begin scanning my thoughts on a regular basis for limiting thoughts... I realize just how often I limited myself. There are no limits in this world. There are no limits to manifestation. So that is something that I need to continue to remind myself. I thought that this was an important topic to talk about, because I know that other people go through this as well. My friend who introduced me to the topic of liminal space is actually going through this also. Many of us are. So I wanted to do a blog post talking about how we should not limit ourselves.

         It is a good thing to actively scan your thoughts for negative self-limiting beliefs. How do you know whether or not you have self-limiting beliefs? Well if you continue to look at the past and see how good things used to be and if you find yourself reflecting on the past a little bit too much oh, this is a sign. This could even be on a physical level. Maybe you look at yourself 10 years ago and think wow I will sell thinner. Or wow I look so much younger. This is a self-limiting beliefs because you are limiting how much beauty you feel for yourself in the present. That can be applied to any other focus area such as spirituality, health, work, finances, etc. So in your daily life make it a point to stop and scan your recent thoughts for self-limiting beliefs. If you find any and just reaffirm to yourself positive things. Try to make it a point every day to reflect on something positive that happened to you. The more you do so, the more you will begin to realize more and more of the positive things that you have going for you and your present life. And this will help you to be led to even more positive things in your future. 

          Some other things about me lately is my spirituality is developing and ways that I did not see coming. if you are familiar with either this website or my YouTube channel you will know that I connect very frequently with the Norse deities. I do connect with other entities as well, but the Norse pantheon is one that was always forefront. I have found myself changing that around. I have been more led to underworld entities lately. And also entities in other dimensions. Like for example elemental grounds and things like that. Specifically I have found myself being guided to underworld entities, and that can be considered beings who are associated with hell. But I do not see hell in a Christian perspective. I see it in a pagan perspective. Because when you research into deities who are associated with the underworld, you will realize that it is not such a bad place. And so I feel as though I'm being guided to new exploration. This is something I am very excited about, but at the same time I'm a little bit saddened about being led away from the Norse pantheon. Not that I'm going to forget that they exist. Because I had soul ties to them, and this is something that I know within my heart. and I know that they understand because as I am in this physical life I am being guided to new exploration and unlocking new parts of myself. I also feel as though on a soul level I have did some type of work in the underworld. Maybe I was helping lost Spirits. Maybe I was helping rehabilitate negative spirits. I'm not sure exactly, but I feel as though I am being guided to work being more directly with the underworld entities for reasons of unlocking more information about my soul past and unlocking more of my own salt memories. So in that way I am definitely embracing this. But it's just funny how things like that happened. 

         I have found myself reflecting on my spirituality for example when I was a teenager. I was into Christianity, but in certain times in my teenage years I was also into paganism and witchcraft. But it was a battle and I still had that Christian mentality that brought me down. Now that I have sort of escaped from the Christian mentality for the most part, I can see the larger picture there. But that makes me wonder what is the larger picture that I am being faced with now? there's always something new to learn, and if anybody tries to make it seem like they have learned everything then they are either lying to you or they are lying to themselves. Because even the most advanced people spiritually and even the most knowledgeable people in education will tell you that there is something always new to learn. So that's what I'm going to be doing more off lately in my future is learning more and being open to more. 

        So I hope that you will be continuing on this journey with me. I will be posting up more logs here and I will also be doing more videos on my YouTube channel. I hope that me logging down my exploration will help you in your exploration. And I know that this has been somewhat rambling, but I do feel it has served a purpose. So I hope that you enjoyed and if you want leave comment below and let me know what your opinions are. What changes have you been going through lately? Are you in a liminal space right now? Just let me know your thoughts let's share our opinions. 

Cosmic Blessings

Finding Who I Really Am & Embracing It - Shadow Work - Spiritual Awakening - Melody's Thoughts

        Lately in my life I've been doing a lot of self evaluation. This is not just evaluating my own life purpose. It's also about seeing into my spirituality and who I really am at a soul level. Some people call this Shadow work, because I have been delving deep into my own Darkness. I've been seeing my darkness for the beauty that it really is. I have heard before that in order to truly get to the light you have to go through the darkness first. In my own way I feel as though going deep into your internal emotions; and whatever blockages you may have, that can help you to really understand who you are. Because no matter if it's deemed as positive or negative, if it's within you, it's a part of you. So I need to give more awareness to every part of who I am. That's what I've been attempting to do lately. It's been causing a lot of issues in a way. I have been questioning whether or not I am content and happy with my life. Personally I do feel happy with my life. But what is even more important here is I do not share who I truly am. Earlier today I saw an interview with Jim Carrey. It was on YouTube. I saw this interview and in the interview Jim Carrey was discussing how he is no longer Jim Carrey. He is coming to terms with who he really is. He explained it in a way which I feel is very straightforward. In today's life we are conditioned to play certain characters. When you are going to work and those fake Smiles that you give, that's a character you are playing. When you are going to church, even though you do not believe in that religion, that's a character you are playing. When you are pretending to be somebody who you are not, you're playing a character. You are giving life to somebody else that is not you. So he explained that he has come into Awakening of who he really is. So that led me to question whether or not I am awakened to who I am really. For the most part I feel as though I am. I know where I'm going and I know what I know. But the only difference is I am reluctant to share certain parts with the world. Why is that? Is it because I'm nervous to be completely genuine about who I am? Is it because I am afraid of feeling judged? Those are things that I felt I had already overcame, but I'm slowly beginning to realize that I have not truly overcame those fears of being judged.

        One example of this is my YouTube channel. I had recently got to a point where I was uploading different videos Almost daily. But I was doing this to help others. Sometimes I would do these videos to share my own opinions so that if somebody else came across it, it would maybe help them. But in a way I was not discussing what I really wanted to discuss. Or at least I was not putting my complete self out there. I had recently got into talking about the Norse gods and goddesses. I had recently started talking more about me being a Pagan. That was me slowly beginning to come out of the spiritual closet, and show who I truly am. I am a pagan who has deep roots in Witchcraft and ancient traditions. I love all of that. I honor the Norse gods and goddesses, but I also honor other pantheons as well. I love Greek mythology as well as Norse mythology. But when it comes to Christianity I still honor the presence of God and Jesus, but I also honor a demons and Satan and the Underworld. That is where I am not truly being upfront about who I am and what I am about. You might say that it's nobody's business, and you would be partially right. It is nobody's business. But I want to share who I am and what I am about because I am proud of it. We live in a civilization where we should be proud of who we are no matter if we are worshipping Satan and the demons and connecting with the underworld or if we are being pretty little Christians. No matter if we are being pagans and honoring the north gods and goddesses or delving deep into the practices of the ancient Greeks. It does not matter if we are coming into awareness of Hindu beliefs or Muslim beliefs. Whatever your beliefs are it is important to be proud of them, because your beliefs are a part of you. They are your experiences in this lifetime. That is what I am realizing. I need to be completely forward with who I am in order for me to respect myself. In order for me to talk the talk I need to also walk the walk. So many times have I told other people do not be afraid of your spiritual beliefs. Do not be afraid of who you are. Yet I was being afraid of Who I Am by not being forward with who I completely am.

            It took a lot of strength to begin talking more about my Witchcraft and my Pagan beliefs in my YouTube videos. It took a lot to begin to talk about my connections with the Norse gods and goddesses. When I say it took a lot of strength, I mean I was scared to put those videos up. I was scared. Why? Why in the hell would I be scared of that? It is because that was the part of me that was afraid of being judged, and the part of me that did not fully Embrace who I was and who I am? But through this Shadow work, that me and my husband Dwayne have been doing, we have been coming in to a lot more depth about Who We Are. Who we are as a couple, but also who we are individually. So what you can expect from this blog is me discussing more about who I am and really giving you my own opinions and my own truth in the way that I see it.

          Recently I have been through a breakup with a friend. This was a friendship with a female who I felt was very sisterly to me. It was hard to break that friendship and I'm not going to get in-depth about why it occurred. But part of the reason was because when she first met me I was not embracing who I truly was, but deeper into the friendship I began to realize who I was and really begin to show that and bring that forward. It was something that was a lot to take in, and as such it put a strain on our relationship. That sisterly friendship that we had. That strong bond was diminished. I have recently been looking into other friendships in my life and I see how they led me to where I am right now. I honor what happened in my past because that is where it led me to the present. But that's also what this is about. Not looking too much into the past, but also not looking too much into the future. It's about being in the here and now and really enjoying each moment for what it truly is. So that's what I'm going to be doing. You can expect a lot more of my own personal thoughts on this blog. I call it a Blog but it's my website. It's a website that I've had for a long time and I do hold a lot of pride in it. I am happy about this website. But at the same time I have not been genuine with it, because I have not put myself completely out there.

           So who am I? What am I about? My name is Melody and I live in Delaware of the United States. I have lived here my entire life and my ancestry has lived here for a long time. I love living near the ocean, and I am a Cancer which is a water element. I enjoy the ocean deeply. I feel a Soul Bond and sometimes a romantic connection to the God Thor, but also the god Poseidon as well. This is something that my husband knows completely about. He has his own connections. We love one another deeply, and that's another aspect of who I am. I also Channel a lot of different entities. I love channeling. I love connecting with the higher dimensions and the spirit realm. That's a deep part of who I am. Some of the beings that I have channeled for our deceased humans that have not crossed over, different gods and goddesses, alien entities otherwise known as the Galactic Federation of Light, Angelic figures, demonic figures, mythological beings. As you can probably see I am a very open person spiritually. I try to keep an open mind in my spiritual beliefs. I have also helped Spirits cross over. These are human spirits who have been left here after their deaths for whatever purpose. You might also call me as Spirit keeper even though I do not like that term. I do not keep these Spirits, I just have a friendship with them and I let them have a home here if they are not ready to cross over. I welcome them to be around me if they are not ready to cross over. This is also something that my husband does with me. We call this our Spirit family. Maybe in another article I will go more in-depth into What Spirit keeping is. Another set of entities that I have channeled before is djinn's. As I have mentioned before I am also deep into witchcraft. I do not like to label it black or white anymore. This has been something that I have done before. I labeled myself as a white witch, but I am coming to realize that it's not that simple. Life is not that simple as there are a lot of Grey areas. So I practice Witchcraft and I try to not go against other people's Free Will. I only cast spells for myself when it is completely needed. I do offer my services in my DarkSecretCreations Bonanza shop. But it is not anything to do with curses. The spells that are offered there are beneficial to the individual. But basically that's the beginning of who I am and what I am about.

        I have also recently been connecting with a lot of Lokeans. These are people who honor and worship and feel very connected to the Norse god Loki. I have always felt a deep connection to Loki, as well as Thor and Poseidon like I mentioned before. But Loki has always been like a best friend in my opinion, and connecting with other people who honor and worship Him is great. I'm very happy to see that people are digging deeper into who the gods and the goddesses truly are. I have also talked with a lot of GodSpouses, this is another topic which I have a lot of appreciation for. So I guess that's where I'm going to end this, because I don't want to sound to rambling. But who I am is not easy to answer and it will likely take a lot of posts to really establish who I truly am. So if you have read this entire post then I'm happy to have you here. Please bookmark my website and sign up for the notifications for when I post something new on here. You may have been to my YouTube channel, I may not post as much on my YouTube channel, as I am really digging deeper into who I am and learning how to really put that out forward. So I feel like the best place for me to begin is by embracing my own thoughts through writing, but at the same time I want to share them. So I figure you do using my website that I feel a lot of Pride for is the best option. If you have ever had any issues with coming into awareness of who you really are or if you have been going through a lot of spiritual Awakenings or Shadow work, leave a comment on this post and share with the world or whoever made read this article what you have been through. Give them a sense of hope. I hope that you enjoyed this until next time, Cosmic Blessings.