Where to begin... Holy Hell... The past few days have been filled with a lot of odd moments. Honestly this entire year of 2019 so far has been filled with a lot of odd moments. I hardly know where to begin. I thought I would share my thoughts here just to get them out. Okay so this year beginning with January there was a change in my work. One door closing so others can open type of situations. And that shook me up for a good while. Made me examine some work goals and life goals. I had to go to the dentist to get two teeth pulled because they were being assholes getting infected and shit. I extremely dislike dental visits, and for this one I didn't get put to sleep. I was awake and trying not to pass out from nervousness. But alas... I survived and it wasn't all that bad. Those two bastards are out, and I wanted to keep them... but the doctor said they were biohazzard waste. I was like.... mmkay. But I got some photos. To spare you of the grossness I won't show you the tooth photos. I overcame my fear of the dentists, and I guess I am happy for the tooth pain. It helped me face the fear. I'll show you a photo of my jaw when they were abscessed.
This year so far though could have been much worse. I'm not trying to talk shit about my life. I'm just releasing some pent up thoughts here. The changes with some of my work goals is a slow process, but it is a process ultimately I am happy to take on. I am inspired to write more and create more. Things are slowly moving, but moving nonetheless. I see now that the changes that happened with my work in January happened to give me a bit more time to focus on new goals. It made me have to transition some stuff, but I don't mind doing that if it's in the good of my future. I have also been working on strengthening myself, my relationships with loved ones, my bond with the spirit realms and my spirit team, and ultimately strengthening the bond with my soul. However, it hasn't been an easy ride. The strengthening is happening through some emotional cleansings. It's like a spiritual death and rebirth. Which I am happy to take on, because I know it'll lead to awesome things. But in the meantime the road has some bumps. Like depression, which I've always had my whole life on and off. These things are surfacing in order to make way for a healing, because how else can I heal if I don't realize there is something there that requires a healing process. So I am taking this on, and I am going with the flow as this process continues.
More recent events have happened this week actually. The other day I heard a loud noise. It sounded like something hit the roof. I went outside to check and it was a damn golf ball. I don't live that close to a golf coarse, but I do live in a neighborhood with neighbor kids. We all know how kids can be. Honestly though, when that happened I thought it might be an omen of something yet to come. Now wait a moment while I explain this next thing which happened before the golf ball. I live with family, and we order take out sometimes. We have a drawer of sauce packets and fortune cookies. Well normally nobody opens or eats them. But the other day (before the golf ball) I went into the kitchen and saw an opened fortune cookie on the counter. It said the following "Two important decisions shall be made by you soon." At first I was like what the hell? Then I thought well someone probably opened it and decided not to eat it. But then I was like, nah Melody... this is a sign of something. So I show my husband Dwayne and we save the fortune paper. Then a day or two later the golf ball happens. Then last night, let me explain to you about last night. Keep in mind I've been feeling depressed on and off. It comes and goes sometimes in the span of just hours. Last night roughly around 10pm est. there was a leak in the pipes in the bathroom right near the shower. It was loud like a waterfall gushing. The water in the entire home is now shut off awaiting plumbers in the next few days. So that sucks, but it's an old home and shit like that happens with old pipes. I can live without running water for a bit. I have before. But after that happened I was scrolling through my facebook feed. Which I usually don't do. But the past few days I have been urged to. I saw that a guy I knew passed away around the same time as the golf ball and fortune cookie. I didn't know him deeply. I met him because he owned a machanic shop and I went there all the time for my 1999 Chrysler. He would help me out if I needed it fixed and if it was expensive. He was very nice, friendly, generous. I remember sitting there one time with Dwayne for hours. I swear it was like all day waiting for the car to be finished. I was chatting with this guy just about the whole time. He was so nice, and this year his shop closed because the owner of the building wouldn't lease him again. So he was actively looking for a new shop to rent. Well he didn't find anything and decided to retire and enjoy life with his wife. Then he passes away this month. Sad how it happened. But at least he enjoyed himself during that time. I didn't know him much at all. I don't know his family. Just him from the machanic shop. But he impacted me a lot by being so generous with a stranger who was trying to fix her car. It's crazy how we can impact people deeply who we barely even know. I shed some tears last night when I saw the news. So that happened... and it's made me think about how short life can be. How we need to seize the damn moment. Grab life by the balls. Take control of shit and fucking have fun, be real, be ourselves, and just go with the flow sometimes.
Oh!! I had someone on instagram randomly tag me in a photo of The Hanged Man. My Gawd how syncronistic is that? I relate. The meaning of that card is spot on. It's about letting go, having an emotional release, surrendering to experience, ending the struggle, being vulnerable and open, giving up control, reversing, changing your mind, overturning old priorities, seeing from a new angle, upending the old order, suspending action, pausing to reflect, taking time to just be, giving up urgency, living in the moment, waiting for the best opportunity, sacrificing, being a martyr, putting self-interest aside, going one step back to go two steps forward, giving up for a higher cause, putting others first, etc. So it's another sign that I take as a positive one ultimately. I've also been seeing repeating numbers much more. 1111, 111, 444, 333, 222, 555. Mainly 1111, and 444 though. So I take those as good signs, and I also had a deja vu moment the other day which I personally take as a sign that I am on the right path. So yeah those are my thoughts. You're still here? Thanks!! It's nice knowing someone is listening. You have anything to share about your year of 2019? Leave me a comment and let me know I'm not alone in shit being shaken up this year. Cosmic Blessings
I haven't wrote on here in a while, and I don't mean to leave things undone. Sometimes I feel like I don't have enough time to do things. You ever get that feeling? Like I have all of these things I want to do, but I don't get them all done. I suppose this is about prioritizing my time. Something of which I know I am not extremely well at. I am also a procrastinator. Yes it is true... I admit it. I don't want to be, but it always happens. I need to get myself out of that habit. For this post I am mainly going to vent about some things that have been on my mind lately. So what are some of the things I want to do that I seemingly do not have enough time for? Cleaning and sorting through old stuff I own. That's a big one that I really need to do to have more space and to feel less cluttered. Working on the websites. This is something that is also very important to me. I need to maintain the websites I do more frequently. Make more items for my DarkSecretCreations.com shop. This is also important to do as I really enjoy making things. It really helps me to mellow out, and it is fun. I want to channel more, and most those channelings on my youtube channels and maybe websites. I don't know if that is needed or just something I am feeling guided to do. It's something that I find myself being very drained after doing the daily routines, and I get unmotivated to channel anyone, even my own guides sometimes. This might not be catagorized as a need, more like a want... but still it is something I feel urged to do. I like channeling messages, learning new things from various spirits/ entities, and I feel those are good things to share if given permission to do so. I don't share everything I channel, but some stuff if the spirit/entity wants me to. Like if it's a global message for humanity from the Galatic Federation Of Light for example. I want to post up more videos on my youtube channel and blogs on here, but I find myself completely at a loss of what to put it. I suppose my spirit guides would say, Melody do not rush it. Do not force things. When you're ready, the ideas will come. But I don't want to be blocking myself from ideas and inspirations from over thinking things. And boy do I over think things sometimes. Don't we all from time to time? So those are the things that have been foremost on my mind lately. I am happy I can share it with you all. Anyone out there who may come across this or who still may be following this blog website.... with my unfrequent posting, SMH. Updates for my life... Hmm well I have started writing prisoners. Prison penpals is something I have always thought about doing, because I have had regular penpals before. By writing prisoners I thought I could spread some love and light into those places, because I'm sure they could use some love and light. I thought I could make some good friendships out of it, and maybe even learn some things from them. Never know who you'll learn great lessons from. So I got a PO box and began my journey. I recently got one letter back. I have wrote six potential penpals over the last month. One already wrote back. She seems like someone I would be good friends with in any other occasion. Plus we are both into witchcraft and such. So I'll see how that goes. I was going for prison penpals who have life in prison or are on death row. Yeah I know, that last one is a controversial one. But who am I to judge them for their past actions. My mom told me, Mel they're probably in there for murder. What if that was your loved one they murdered. Sure I wouldn't want to befriend them, and it would be a different story. But I don't really have an answer to that what if. I am just trying to spread love and light to those who may need it. If I was in that situation, I would want the same done to me. So hopefully it turns out to be a good journey to friendships. But if not, oh well. I have a feeling it will be good though. Also to all my Gods and Goddesses I connect with. Some of the ones I have talked about on here before, I've been having good connections with them still. Just with me trying to better prioritize my time I haven't done as much connecting with them. I like to do that stuff outside, and it's been cold lately. We're in the winter season, and being inside trying to connect with the spirit realms while living with family in a smaller home can be a pain in the ass, haha.... to put it bluntly. But I have had some awesome dreams and visions lately. I write those down still. I make time for that. Does anyone out there have any issues with prioritizing their time and goals? Any advice you'd like to share with me or anyone else who may come across this post and relate? Share it in the comments. I read the comments and try to respond to them. Speak with you soon. Instagram: Follow me!! @AstralMelody Cosmic Blessings, Melody
I've been having some crazy strong dreams lately. They're very intense, and when I am dreaming I at times go into an astral projection. I can tell by how my upper body feels after and how more extra vivid the experiences are. In a recent astral experience I saw Hondor who appeared to be as much taller then he usually does. He had blazing golden hair and blazing golden eyes both illuminating brightly. I know this was his more astral or soul image. Normally he will appear in a more human format. But this time he really looked like the light being that I know he is. In the astral experience I was with my husband and some of my other spirit family group. It was nice to be able to share those moments in the astral with them.
I have recently did two youtube videos that was mostly prompted from Loki. I kept getting spirit messages that he wanted me to discuss a topic about him and also something about the Godspouse topic. I'll include the links to the videos below. But he is one who will bug and bug until you follow through on a request. I say that with love though. I was trying to stray away from discussing topics of Godspousing and even topics of him. This is just for personal reasons so I can focus more on my own personal spirit relationships with them. But when the spirit realm continues to send messages, I listened to the call. My channel isn't big, and really it's as big as it needs to be. Those who the videos are intended to reach are reached, and really it's a hobby for me. Or so I thought. But I am coming to realize that the Gods have been placing topic ideas in front of me so I will discuss them. Those are the videos which end up getting more views then some of my others. I am very happy to be a catalyst to bring through messages from the spirit realms to those who need the message. After the Loki video about the topic of why he goes silent, I got messages from people saying how they had needed to hear that message and how it helped give them some perspective. I am honored to do that for the Gods and the spirit realms. I have been wanting to work on a new book I am going to publish eventually. It's mainly the story of my past life. I will be working with my spirit guides and my spirit team, particularly Hondor, to write this story. I am still deciding which very personal parts to keep in and which to leave out. It's going to be a journey to write, because I know how that life ended. But perhaps it will be "inspired" by my past life. I am excited to get it going mainly for myself actually. I love writing. My other book Heartmine Destiny isn't a big seller by any means, but I am very proud of it nonetheless. Publishing book is something I always wanted to do, and I did it. Also I have been thinking about publishing a book of spells or something like thatl. I know that should be a big hit among those who purchase readings and spell castings from my shop DarkSecretCreations. So lot's of ideas flowing through my mind. I want to post some spiritual topics up here instead of it just being a website of my thoughts. I want to have an entire section of helpful articles for people. So expect a bit of changes around here. I will be working on those in the next week or so. Thanks for reading. Much Love!! Cosmic Blessings
