I've been having some crazy strong dreams lately. They're very intense, and when I am dreaming I at times go into an astral projection. I can tell by how my upper body feels after and how more extra vivid the experiences are. In a recent astral experience I saw Hondor who appeared to be as much taller then he usually does. He had blazing golden hair and blazing golden eyes both illuminating brightly. I know this was his more astral or soul image. Normally he will appear in a more human format. But this time he really looked like the light being that I know he is. In the astral experience I was with my husband and some of my other spirit family group. It was nice to be able to share those moments in the astral with them.
I have recently did two youtube videos that was mostly prompted from Loki. I kept getting spirit messages that he wanted me to discuss a topic about him and also something about the Godspouse topic. I'll include the links to the videos below. But he is one who will bug and bug until you follow through on a request. I say that with love though. I was trying to stray away from discussing topics of Godspousing and even topics of him. This is just for personal reasons so I can focus more on my own personal spirit relationships with them. But when the spirit realm continues to send messages, I listened to the call. My channel isn't big, and really it's as big as it needs to be. Those who the videos are intended to reach are reached, and really it's a hobby for me. Or so I thought. But I am coming to realize that the Gods have been placing topic ideas in front of me so I will discuss them. Those are the videos which end up getting more views then some of my others. I am very happy to be a catalyst to bring through messages from the spirit realms to those who need the message. After the Loki video about the topic of why he goes silent, I got messages from people saying how they had needed to hear that message and how it helped give them some perspective. I am honored to do that for the Gods and the spirit realms. I have been wanting to work on a new book I am going to publish eventually. It's mainly the story of my past life. I will be working with my spirit guides and my spirit team, particularly Hondor, to write this story. I am still deciding which very personal parts to keep in and which to leave out. It's going to be a journey to write, because I know how that life ended. But perhaps it will be "inspired" by my past life. I am excited to get it going mainly for myself actually. I love writing. My other book Heartmine Destiny isn't a big seller by any means, but I am very proud of it nonetheless. Publishing book is something I always wanted to do, and I did it. Also I have been thinking about publishing a book of spells or something like thatl. I know that should be a big hit among those who purchase readings and spell castings from my shop DarkSecretCreations. So lot's of ideas flowing through my mind. I want to post some spiritual topics up here instead of it just being a website of my thoughts. I want to have an entire section of helpful articles for people. So expect a bit of changes around here. I will be working on those in the next week or so. Thanks for reading. Much Love!! Cosmic Blessings
The term of Godspouse is something that comes with a lot of controversy. If you're wondering what Godspouse means, then please click here to go to another post I did a while back explaining about this topic. People hear the term and some automatically dispute it as all bullshit. But what's the difference between someone who wants to devote themselves to a particular God and someone devoting themselves to Jesus Christ? In my opinion, not a damn thing. I have been called to discuss the topic of Godspousing, because that is what I feel urged to do. I have a bonding with the Norse Gods, and I feel very drawn to them. One in particular is Thor, and I know I am being called to discuss the topic of Godspouses a lot because this is something that needs light shed onto it. There are many who feel drawn to various Gods and Goddesses, and some might feel a romantic pull, but they don't know how to describe it. So I want to be someone who hopefully can bring clarity and positive light to this topic.
However, I find myself struggling to really define myself as a Godspouse. I don't see my connection to Thor or any of the other Gods and Goddesses as a marriage necessarily. It's not in the way humans get married. After all the human idea of marriage has been shit on so much in recent years, has it not? With all the divorcing and cheating people do. The marriage bonding is something that humanity seems to be lacking to take seriously. But I am not one to judge. But I am one to take up for those who want to proceed with a marriage (A BONDING) to a God or Goddess because they feel that passionate about their love for that God or Goddess. For many who choose that path it's not about sexual pursuits. Who gives a fuck about sex when it comes to love? Sex isn't love! You could fuck a 100 people and not feel nothing for them. Love is not an equivilent of sex. Marriage is also not an equivilent of sex. In my opinion marriage is a bonding between two souls who want to show their love to one another and want to honor one another with that sort of bonding. And that is what I like about the idea of Godspousing. But honestly I do struggle to label myself with that word, and it is because of the judging people do on it. It's because of the lack of understanding people have for this topic. And so I know that is why I am being called to take up for the Godspouses out there, even though I may not completely label myself as such. I don't like labels anyway, but that's just me. Many people love labels, and to those people who do use the label of Godspouse on themselves, I want to take up for.
They have a bonding with another soul, even though it may be a God or Goddess. But I have come across those who share that same bond with other spirit entities. I know some who feel a bonding to djinns, demons, nature spirits, aliens, ascended beings, etc. So should I am wondering if there shouldn't be a better word for those individuals. Perhaps Soul Relationship, Soul Bonding, etc. I like those terms. I wouldn't think twice about saying I have a Soul Bonding with Thor or a Soul Relationship with Thor. And so I hope this is making sense... The term Godspouse is very limited in the sense that it's only to a God and it's only a spousal connection. But there are many who feel the connection is much more then spousal. Perhaps that is a part of it, but it is much more and the tern Godspouse to many seems like a hollow term. So I am on a mission to spread the word about Soul Bondings and Soul Relationships. Perhaps even Spirit Marriages.
After all when do you ever hear someone refer to a wife or husband as their spouse outside of a professional setting? Perhaps in a work environment you'd use that term, but in a casual setting you wouldn't use it. Right? Can you imagine, "Oh this is my Spouse Jane." No they would say this is my parter or wife Jane. Spouse seems like a downplay to a very beautiful connection that two people share. In fact in many successful marriages the two individuals have a great friendship. They would refer to one another as best friends even. I would call my husband Dwayne my best friend, and so I feel the same way about Thor. He's like a best friend who I know I can always count on. Are you a Godspouse? Do you understand what I'm saying? Let's broaden the horizon of the Godspouse term and make the label Soul Bonding or Soul Reationship more popular, because to me the idea of Godspousing is a wonderful concept, but the term needs work. Do you agree? Share your thoughts in the comments, I'd be happy to hear!!
Loki And Thor: My Two Loves Who Guide Me Every Day - A Godspouse Testimony First and foremost I want to begin this by saying that I am not a Marvel Fangirl. I do not associate the actors to the Norse Gods. I am a Pagan and I suppose you could say that I am a polytheist. I see the Gods as very real individuals, who are just as real as you and me, and not as metaphors or aspects of one great God or Goddess. believe in many different dimensions and realms, and I believe that this is where many of the Gods and Goddesses reside. I have been into stories of Thor and Norse Mythology since I was a young girl. I remember it would be in the Summer in the 90's and we didn't have air conditioning when I was little. So when it thunder stormed we would go outside and enjoy the rain as long as the lightling wasn't streaking too dangerously. It was a lot of fun, and I remember the tales of Thor storming accross the sky with his chariot, goats, and hammer. I remember hearing tales of the rainbow leading to a fantasy realm. I believed in elves, fairies, and magic. I saw all of this as real, and I still do. In adulthood I began to research more and more into Norse Mythology, and I realized by connection to Loki. I realized I had visitations from him when I was young. I remember being about 3 years old and I was going to a celebration at my older brother's school for a group he was in called Future. I remember seeing a man and a female who looked very different from the 80's fashion styles at the time. The female was to the right of the man and was slightly shorter then the man. She had a darker brownish red colored hair, and the male had black hair that was long and neatly combed. The male stared at me with the biggest brightest smile. I went to walk over to him because he was so welcoming in energy. My mother yelled at me for walking away from her. She asked me who I was walking to. I realized that she didn't see them. I remember saying that I was walking to the man, and she said there was nobody there and to not try to walk away again or I might get lost. I still wanted to walk up to the man, but he waved his hand as if to say no, stay with your mother. So I obeyed. I now realize who that person was. It was the mischevious Loki coming in to say hello. I also remember another time when I was about 3 or 4 years old. It was the day I first saw a rainbow. It was a very large and bright double rainbow, and my mom called me outside to see it. She explained to me the story of the rainbow, and how there are tales of the end of the rainbow being connected to a magical mystical land. I saw a face in the sky that day. It was the face of what I now interpret as Thor. I feel very blessed to have these experiences, and these are just two experiences of times when I felt their presence or saw them. It was a great feeling to finally understand those moments when I first began to really embrace my Pagan path. So I suppose techniqually you could label me a Godspouse of both Loki and Thor. But I don't like the label of something that is so one sided. I don't see myself as a spouse of a God necessarily. I see myself as having a deep intimate connection with Loki and Thor. I deeply connect with many other Gods and Goddesses as well. But it is to Loki and Thor who hold my heart. I have made my own connections to Loki and Thor to the Greek Pantheon. I often wonder if all the Gods and Goddesses can be matched up that way. I won't go into those connections I've made just yet on here. I don't feel now is the time to release that, as I still feel it is something I haven't got all the information about for myself yet. I also do not call Thor by the name of Thor. I call him by a name that I personally know him as, and it's a name that bonds he and I together through an experience a long time ago on earth. If other's are reading this right now, you may not believe me... But that's okay because I know it's true from within my soul. I do refer to Loki as Loke. He has shared with me other names he goes by, but I do prefer the term Loki or Loke. I feel it's partially because of my own name. Melody, take away the Me and leave just the Lody. It sounds very simular to Loki, and I like that. I feel like a best frend connection with Loki for so long. It has only been recently when I have feel a stronger romantic bond with him. By romantic I don't mean sex really, even though that has come up. (I feel nervous about sharing this, but I am going to proceed.) It is about the connection that two souls share, and physical sex doesn't have to be a part of that. It's kind of like when you stare into the eyes of a lover or a partner and just know that you both have a soul bond that goes deeper then flesh and bone. It penetrates the soul, and is a link that forever bonds the two. That's what I feel with Loki, and it's a beautiful feeling to have such a connection with another soul. I call them souls, because they are souls, just like us. It just so happens that they have a higher ranking in a way. So I honor that. When it comes to Thor I feel the most powerful sense of wonder, lust, enjoyment, happiness, and pure fascination when I connect with him. When I see him in dreams and astral travels I feel so deeply impacted by the gaze from his eyes. In the eddas it says that Thor has fierce of fiery eyes. That's so true, because his eyes stab you with wonder. They penetrate your soul with mystery and call out to you. When he looks at you, it's like you're looking into the depth of a blazing star that is brightly shining and so amazingly beautiful. It's powerful with strength and you feel it with every sense of your being. That's what I feel when I connect with Thor. Like I said, you could count me as a Godspouse, but I do not personally define myself as a Godspouse. I take my relationships with the Gods and Goddesses that I honor very seriously. Just the other day I was connecting with Thor in my spirit journal. My spirit journal is a journal I have where I write out messages to the spirit realm entities I connect with, such as my spirit guides, the Gods and Goddesses, etc. I also channel messages and log them in there. So I have been led by Thor lately to come to terms with my own opinion of marriage. I feel like I dislike marriage because of my parents marriage. They're married still, but might as well not be. In all of my years here on earth so far I have never saw them me loving to one another. They both have their own reasons and their own faults, but it's something that I feel negative about. When I think of marriage I think of their relationship, and I feel as though I don't want any parts of marriage because of that. I think that's a main reason why I don't want to define myself as a spouse, I don't even like to refer to my life partner, my husband, as a spouse. Techniqually we are not married, but we have been together for over 10 years. We both consider one another as a spouse, and I call him my husband and he calls me his wife. But the actual marriage hasn't happened, and I never wanted a marriage when I was growing up. I certainly didn't want a big wedding. I thought if anything I would elope or something like that. But I realize my reluctance to go get that marriage paper with my husband is because of my negative attachments to the idea of marriage. This has also hindered my deep connection with Thor. Now in recent years with my bonding to Loki, it's also hard. I've told him that I would rather us remain as best friends and perhaps talk about the idea of a deeper bond later. I feel like Thor and my husband Dwayne is enough for now. But I know he wants that deeper bond. I feel it everytime I connect with him, whether it's in my spirit journal, dreams, astral travels, etc. I feel it, and I feel I owe it to myself to figure out how to take away that negative attachment to the label of marriage. I like the idea of being bonded with another soul. I like the idea of life long bondings and partnerships. But it's when the term marriage comes in when I begin to cringe. So I thank Thor for helping me to realize that I have this negative attachment to marriage. I have discussed with my mother about why she's so negative, and it led to intense arguments, most of which has now passed. I know my dad's side. I know why their marriage didn't work. They got married young and for the wrong reasons, but were both too poor to really seperate. My mother has deep emotional issues when it comes to depression. My dad has his own issues, and also Bi-Polar. No I didn't grow up in an abusive childhood, but my dad cussed and yelled all the time. To this day I still dislike the fuck out of aggression and confrontation. But I have got better with dealing with that also thanks to Loki, Thor, and Dwayne my life partner-husband. So this post has turned into my own life issues, but I wanted to include that because that's how deeply bonded I feel with Thor and Loki. They help me out in so many ways, and to me that is intimacy. That is romance. That is love. That is marriage. Being best friends with someone and feeling that deep soul bond. It's not about sex. You can fuck whoever you want, sex isn't even in this for me... even though it has come up and it's a nice thing to experience. But to me marriage and being a spouse, even a Godspouse... it's about being best friends and deeply knowing that other person. It's about partnership and an eternal bonding. What do you think? Leave a comment below, and don't forget to subscribe to this blog using the side panel tab to the right of the page. 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Today is a new day. I am feeling renewed somehow. It's a cloudy day here, and the air is cooler. The breeze is slightly blowing, and I hear the movement of the Autumn leaves in the trees. Days like today really get me thinking about things, and lately I've been doing so much thinking about deeper issues outside of my day to day mundane life. Today I have thoughts about Loki on my mind. This is the Norse god Loki, and he has been a great friend to me. He has been a permanent fixture in my life for the past few years, but this has also been throughout my entire life. I have had experiences with him in childhood, and I appreciate that he has been a reoccurring guide in my life. He never gives up basically. That is something that I find he does with everyone who honors him or reaches out to him. He will not give up on you. If you ask him for space, then he will give you that space. He will honor what you want, but he is somebody that will definitely be able to help when you need a friend. I feel as though he is a God who is very misunderstood. Loki is known as a trickster, and a lot of people do not see him for who he truly is. He is more than just a trickster. Sure he likes a good laugh. Sure he likes to have a good time sometimes, but don't we all? He can also be very serious and give a lot of wisdom. I know that he has given me so much wisdom when I ask for it, and he has guided me to deeper awareness of myself and my soul identity. I wanted to share some of my experiences today. This is more along the lines of me trying to come to terms with my true and genuine self. This is me discussing my own experiences, because I feel as though it is good for me to do so. I love writing, and I have got to a point in my life where I stopped writing. That's something that use to partially define me. You would always see me with a notebook in hand or writing something down. So instead of doing my usual YouTube videos, I am going to make use of my love for writing and my blog website. Yesterday I was sitting outside doing some work on my tablet, it was a sunny day and the weather was on the verge of being too warm. I have a little rectangular table that is in between an evergreen Bush and a yellow poplar tree. I sit right in between the tree and the bush. So it is common for me to see spiders. I am not deeply afraid of spiders. There are ones that we have around here that is relatively common. They are little black ones with white spots. Yesterday I felt something on my left shoulder. This was a very small black spider with white spots. It was just sitting there ever so calmly. I went to brush it off and I thought I was successful in brushing It off, but he moved more towards my back and out of my reach. A few minutes later I felt it again and it was sitting back on my shoulder. I tried to brush it off again so I would not hurt the spider. After that happened I realized that this was most likely Loki. He has appeared to me and my husband before as spiders. My husband was deeply afraid of spiders, but due to Loki appearing as spiders, it has assisted him in his arachnophobia. This is just one example of how Loki can help. He will work through fears that you have with you. For my own experience yesterday with him sending me his energy through that spider sitting on my shoulder, I feel as though it was him letting me know that he is right beside me no matter what. As of late I have been questioning my life a lot. I have been questioning my own understanding of things and really trying to embrace who I am truly. So him appearing there to me, even if it is as a spider, that give me confirmation that we are not as separated from the higher dimensional Realms as we feel like we are in this physical incarnation. Sometimes it is so hard to deal with being in a physical Incarnation. I feel so restricted in this physical body and here on Earth. The more I awaken to my spiritual energy. The more I become aware of my soul potential. The harder it is to live with these physical limitations, and that's what it honestly feels like here on earth for me right now. Like I am trapped in a suit of flesh until the suit of flesh expires. Sounds extreme right? I agree. Nonetheless, I seem to have memories of a place that seems like a higher dimensional space. My visions and soul memories show places that seem like Heavenly realms. I like to think of this as what Asgard looks like.
If you are unaware, Asgard is one of the nine worlds of Norse mythology. It is home to the tribes of the Aesir. The Aesir is one of the two tribes of gods. The other tribe is called Vanir. In Norse mythology Asgard is understood as being in the sky; and is connected to midgard, which is Earth, the world of humanity. What connects Asgard to midgard is the Rainbow Bridge, which is called the bifrost. As compared to other mythologies, such as Greek, Asgard would be compared to Mount Olympus. But I personally like to think of Asgard like a higher dimensional place. Similar to what Christians perceive as Heaven. This is a utopian place and is like paradise. It is a place that you really would want to go to. I have had many visions of places that seem very otherworldly. I think of these places as where my soul calls home. I feel like Earth is not necessarily my home, even though it is my current home for my physical body. I feel like these Visions are memories of where I was before I decided to enter into this physical incarnation. I see visions of beautiful Rivers shimmering and glowing. These Rivers connect to beautiful waterfalls. As the water falls down and hits the bottom, the Mist comes up and enters into the air. The Mist glistens, and the smell of this place is like the fragrance of rain mixed with flowers. So imagine that scent times 1000. I have received images of huge palaces. These are different structures than what we find here on Earth. Even throughout Earth history I have not saw anything similar to what these palaces look like. They are so tall and they could fit Giants within them. I remember seeing large Halls which connect to different rooms. But the halls have these humongous arches. These archways would be extremely tall. They would be so much more taller than what a normal human height would require. If I had to estimate they would approximately be about 50 ft tall. There are other archways which would be smaller. I also remember seeing visions of a bridge. This is a bridge that you would walk on and it seemed to be paved with a glistening Stone. Even though it was a bridge for walking over, it was extremely large. It was large enough for a giant to walk on. Think about how wide a common two-lane road is here on Earth. That is approximately the size of these walkway Bridges. In regards to the stone, think about how a snowy quartz stone would look if you paved an entire walkway with white glistening gemstones. If you looked down from the railings you would see Rushing Water underneath. But there would also be beautiful Lush forest and plants that these walkway Bridges would go across. I remember this Pavilion with something that looked like a gazebo on top. It was very large, and it also looks like it was created with beautiful gemstone. The structures were not made by concrete or cement. They were not made by Brick or wood. It looked like these places were made out of the most beautiful gemstones. I remember so many things in this place glowing and shimmering. There would really be no use for a sun to illuminate this place, because everything seem to illuminate on its own. I do remember there being what looks like a sky, but it's hard to explain. There are a lot of different colors. Think about how beautiful a colorful Sunset looks here on Earth. Now imagine this places sky being like a colorful sunset, but still illuminated with the most purest vibrant light you can imagine. It's not light from a sun. It's not light from artificial means such as electricity. It is something that I don't know how to explain.
I remember going here with a few of my female Spirit guides. I also was here with Thor and also Loki on a few occasions. I have been here by myself talking with the Goddess Frigga. In this place there are other dimensional gateways. There are portals which lead to the other realms. So from this heavenly place you can get to anywhere else. I also remember something like a library, but Frigga and my female guides explained it to me as if it were like the akashic records. There are these things which appeared to me like books. But it's not how we perceive books to be here on Earth. Once you open it up it transports you to that story. Whatever book you open, it transports you to that place and that time. So if you are opening a book of somebody's lifetime, you can revisit that person's lifetime, so essentially this is like an akashic records Library. I feel so blessed to have these visions and to remember them. I feel like this place is my home. This place is where my soul belongs. This is everything that I've been holding back, and I feel extremely proud to be writing this right now. Because it's like I am coming to terms with all of this and really embracing it. I'm not letting fear of being judged get in the way. So I feel like that is where I'm going to end this post. I have so much more to say, but I do not want to overwhelm myself with what I'm going to put out first. Words cannot express how happy I am right now for taking the initiative to really put this out there. I'm not putting this out there for other people to see, even though I know that other people will see it, and it can potentially help other people. Particularly if there is anybody else out there looking for similar answers such as what I have been doing. I am not putting this out there to rub it in other people's faces who worship and honor the Norse gods and goddesses. I'm not trying to boast about all of the things that I remember. I'm not sharing this from a place of selfish Pride. I'm sharing this from a place of being proud of myself and for seeing who I really am and not hiding it. I genuinely hope that other people come across this, because I would love to communicate with other people who have similar experiences. So if you are reading this right now, and if you can relate to anything that I have stated. Please leave a comment below and share your experiences. Let's try to create a community where we don't have to hide who we are just because we are afraid of being judged by Society here on Earth. Let's create a community where it's okay to be ourselves. I feel like the gods are guiding me through this. I feel like Loki, Thor, and my Spirit guides are urging me to do this. And I am very happy to be at a place in my life where I can hear their messages and listen to what they have to say. So that's where I end this, I hope that you bookmark this website. In the side tabs of this website you can find the area where you can subscribe and sign up for notifications. That way you will know whenever I post something new. Have a beautiful day and Cosmic blessings to all of you.
