Life Updates

I haven't posted on here in a while. I thought I would update on what's been going on. I am overcoming the pain surrounding the death of my cat Hershey. I still have moments when it comes rushing back, but I am overcoming it. I am progressing and having patience with myself regarding the process. I have also been thinking about a lot of random shit. I'll explain it below in different sections.

Fake Love

Not all love is genuine. There are people in your life who are only there because of what they could get out of it. Or if they do love you, it's not unconditional. I got a message sent to me intuitively a few weeks ago. Here's what it said. "Not everyone wants to see you succeed. Not everyone has honest intentions." The next day someone in my family told me they can't talk to me as much because they don't approve of some of my choices regarding my spirituality and beliefs. By immediate reaction was sadness for this person to feel they have to do that. So many people are caught up in bullshit and they want to bring you down with them. My next thought was that I never asked for your damn approval. I sure as hell don't need your damn approval to follow my heart. There had been other things that happened that made me realize that I need to guard who I give my energy and emotions to. I was in so many words accused of having intentions of stealing a family members business ideas... which I wasn't at all. They played it off, but the initial one I was talking to did accuse me of having ill intentions. It wasn't direct, but it was enough to let me know that I need to guard myself regarding that individual. Not everyone in your life wants to see you do good. Not that we should live our lives being suspicious of everyone, but don't expect everyone in your life to be happy for you in the same way that you're happy for yourself. Do you baby and follow your heart. I have been trying to not be that hating person either. I have been trying to give my energy and emotions to those who give me the same in return. 

Negative Energies

I've suspected negative thoughts and energies being sent my way. To which I say I am doing counteracting measures, and I am not afraid to go dark on a bitch spiritually in my magic. Message sent. 

Expansion

I am heading towards expansions in my beliefs and my understanding of the Gods and reality and life as a whole. It's a lot to take in, and I can say I have evolved to new points, but I am still evolving. The way I see the Gods and Goddesses are not the same way as a year or two ago. That is why I have stopped talking openly about my connections and interactions with the Gods and Goddesses I usually communed with. Not that I am not communing with them, but it's in different ways now. It has evolved... as it should. We don't stay the same so why should our viewpoints on spiritual topics? If you're familiar with this blog, you'll know I have talked a lot about the Norse Gods. I am still connected to Norse Mythology, and I always will be because it's a part of my ancestry. It's in my blood and it's in my soul past. But I am expanding the way I see the Gods and my quest is to learn as much about them as I can. Not them in the sense of how they were seen to humans back in the day, but them as in where they came from. Who they are at a soul level. Where they're from in the scheme of more then just Higher Realms. I believe through my journey in learning more about that, I will learn more about my own soul history. 

Death & Illness

Shit there has been a lot of death and illness I've heard about lately. Many clients of mine who I've done psychic work for have been experiencing death in their lives too. This year I had Hershey my cat die, another stray cat I loved a lot died too. The guy who I would always take my car to get fixed died, and his death was very syncronistic. His business had to be shut down because the owners of the building wouldn't release. He was looking for another place but was unsuccessful. He gave up and decided to retire with his wife. He had just enough time to travel a bit and enjoy time with her before he passed of I think heart issues. My elderly neighbor died of a stroke or heart issues. One of my best friends mom had a stroke and it recovering in a nursing home. A youtuber known as Grampa on GrampaKitchen youtube channel died. I loved that man, he seemed like such a kind soul. And recently John Witherspoon died. My own dad totaled his truck, but he is okay. There's been so much more too. It's crazy. Shit is totally weird this year, and it's not just for me. This year has been a damn doozey on many people. Hopefully 2020 has much better in store for all of us. In a way though, these obstacles of life do make us stronger. So if you've lost anyone, leave a memorial message about them in the comments of this post. Share your words with whoever else might come across this post. 

I am doing good though, and I am trying to keep motivation and balanced with my depression. I have been doing very good lately emotionally. I am proud of myself for that. I have been trying to keep busy with my spiritual work. I have been making new items for sale in my shop website www.DarkSecretCreations.com and I have added new Tiers to my Patreon www.patreon.com/SecretMae . If you'd like to support me and my spiritual work, go check those two links out. There might be something I offer that you would enjoy. Thanks for listening. 

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Cosmic Blessings

My Spirit Shake Ups Of 2019

        Where to begin... Holy Hell... The past few days have been filled with a lot of odd moments. Honestly this entire year of 2019 so far has been filled with a lot of odd moments. I hardly know where to begin. I thought I would share my thoughts here just to get them out. Okay so this year beginning with January there was a change in my work. One door closing so others can open type of situations. And that shook me up for a good while. Made me examine some work goals and life goals. I had to go to the dentist to get two teeth pulled because they were being assholes getting infected and shit. I extremely dislike dental visits, and for this one I didn't get put to sleep. I was awake and trying not to pass out from nervousness. But alas... I survived and it wasn't all that bad. Those two bastards are out, and I wanted to keep them... but the doctor said they were biohazzard waste. I was like.... mmkay. But I got some photos. To spare you of the grossness I won't show you the tooth photos. I overcame my fear of the dentists, and I guess I am happy for the tooth pain. It helped me face the fear. I'll show you a photo of my jaw when they were abscessed.

        This year so far though could have been much worse. I'm not trying to talk shit about my life. I'm just releasing some pent up thoughts here. The changes with some of my work goals is a slow process, but it is a process ultimately I am happy to take on. I am inspired to write more and create more. Things are slowly moving, but moving nonetheless. I see now that the changes that happened with my work in January happened to give me a bit more time to focus on new goals. It made me have to transition some stuff, but I don't mind doing that if it's in the good of my future. I have also been working on strengthening myself, my relationships with loved ones, my bond with the spirit realms and my spirit team, and ultimately strengthening the bond with my soul. However, it hasn't been an easy ride. The strengthening is happening through some emotional cleansings. It's like a spiritual death and rebirth. Which I am happy to take on, because I know it'll lead to awesome things. But in the meantime the road has some bumps. Like depression, which I've always had my whole life on and off. These things are surfacing in order to make way for a healing, because how else can I heal if I don't realize there is something there that requires a healing process. So I am taking this on, and I am going with the flow as this process continues.

       More recent events have happened this week actually. The other day I heard a loud noise. It sounded like something hit the roof. I went outside to check and it was a damn golf ball. I don't live that close to a golf coarse, but I do live in a neighborhood with neighbor kids. We all know how kids can be. Honestly though, when that happened I thought it might be an omen of something yet to come. Now wait a moment while I explain this next thing which happened before the golf ball. I live with family, and we order take out sometimes. We have a drawer of sauce packets and fortune cookies. Well normally nobody opens or eats them. But the other day (before the golf ball) I went into the kitchen and saw an opened fortune cookie on the counter. It said the following "Two important decisions shall be made by you soon." At first I was like what the hell? Then I thought well someone probably opened it and decided not to eat it. But then I was like, nah Melody... this is a sign of something. 

      So I show my husband Dwayne and we save the fortune paper. Then a day or two later the golf ball happens. Then last night, let me explain to you about last night. Keep in mind I've been feeling depressed on and off. It comes and goes sometimes in the span of just hours. Last night roughly around 10pm est. there was a leak in the pipes in the bathroom right near the shower. It was loud like a waterfall gushing. The water in the entire home is now shut off awaiting plumbers in the next few days. So that sucks, but it's an old home and shit like that happens with old pipes. I can live without running water for a bit. I have before. But after that happened I was scrolling through my facebook feed. Which I usually don't do. But the past few days I have been urged to. I saw that a guy I knew passed away around the same time as the golf ball and fortune cookie. I didn't know him deeply. I met him because he owned a machanic shop and I went there all the time for my 1999 Chrysler. He would help me out if I needed it fixed and if it was expensive. He was very nice, friendly, generous. I remember sitting there one time with Dwayne for hours. I swear it was like all day waiting for the car to be finished. I was chatting with this guy just about the whole time. He was so nice, and this year his shop closed because the owner of the building wouldn't lease him again. So he was actively looking for a new shop to rent. Well he didn't find anything and decided to retire and enjoy life with his wife. Then he passes away this month. Sad how it happened. But at least he enjoyed himself during that time. I didn't know him much at all. I don't know his family. Just him from the machanic shop. But he impacted me a lot by being so generous with a stranger who was trying to fix her car. It's crazy how we can impact people deeply who we barely even know. I shed some tears last night when I saw the news. So that happened... and it's made me think about how short life can be. How we need to seize the damn moment. Grab life by the balls. Take control of shit and fucking have fun, be real, be ourselves, and just go with the flow sometimes. 

        Oh!! I had someone on instagram randomly tag me in a photo of The Hanged Man. My Gawd how syncronistic is that? I relate. The meaning of that card is spot on. It's about letting go, having an emotional release, surrendering to experience, ending the struggle, being vulnerable and open, giving up control, reversing, changing your mind, overturning old priorities, seeing from a new angle, upending the old order, suspending action, pausing to reflect, taking time to just be, giving up urgency, living in the moment, waiting for the best opportunity, sacrificing, being a martyr, putting self-interest aside, going one step back to go two steps forward, giving up for a higher cause, putting others first, etc. So it's another sign that I take as a positive one ultimately. I've also been seeing repeating numbers much more. 1111, 111, 444, 333, 222, 555. Mainly 1111, and 444 though. So I take those as good signs, and I also had a deja vu moment the other day which I personally take as a sign that I am on the right path. So yeah those are my thoughts. You're still here? Thanks!! It's nice knowing someone is listening. You have anything to share about your year of 2019? Leave me a comment and let me know I'm not alone in shit being shaken up this year. 

Cosmic Blessings

My Thoughts On My Path

       Well I have been ascent from posting haven't I... the pursuit of new goals and strengthening as well as maintaining current goals is ongoing. I've been making jewelry and having new items for my shop, www.DarkSecretCreations.com . It's a work in progress, but it's coming together nicely I feel. I've been a bit foggy minded lately spiritually. I do psychic readings, and I find it takes me a bit longer to do the readings then before. I still get the information through, but it takes a bit longer to get it. I ask myself why!! And I've come up with the answer that I am spreading myself too thin. I need to release negative from my life to help keep my energy vibrations raised. This is a release of negative thoughts in how I see myself and my life. Negative people are apart of this as well. I need to keep my energy reserved. Also I have come across the fact that I trust way too easily at times. I do tend to be very trusting, and a recent experience with a neighbor has got me to realize that I need to be more mindful of my actions. It wasn't anything terrible, just an observation that the neighbor really couldn't be trusted and relied upon, and it was a lesson. A lesson in which I believe I fully passed. I think I got all from the experience that I needed to. Which that has made me feel much more observant of people in my life. I think back to a time when I was a teenager and how trusting I was of certain friends. I wish I could go back in time and slap myself in the face for being so trusting. Not that I feel you should walk around being untrusting of everyone and hardening your emotions. Honestly, some of my family do that and I DO NOT want to be one of those people. I would much rather be too trusting then a hardened soul who cannot open their heart to trust. But a balance is something I need. Maybe one day soon I will go in depth into my experiences with friends in my teen years. But not today. Today I want to just vent my emotions, even though I know it would sound very rambley to others who read it. But if you read it then awesome, have you been too trusting before? Please leave a comment and explain your situation if you want.

         Lately I have been trying to keep my energy vibrations raised and my area cleansed. This is something I am doing to strengthen my spirituality and psychic abilities. A way to target my focus on being more fully aware of my soul self and my soul power. This is something I desire. Lately I have been digging deeper into the truth of the Gods and Goddesses. This is things that is very complex, and I don't know if it is something I would share. I feel if I do I wouldn't explain it clearly. I see some of the Gods and Goddesses of different pantheons as the same group. An ancient group of entities which seeded life on earth for humans, and this is something that changed over time as humans told stories of their interactions with those ancient entities. And we call them Gods by different pantheon names as we saw them in our own cultures history. But are the Greek Gods separate from the Norse or Roman or Egyptian or Mayan Gods? I am beginning to think....... no they're not. They're just one group of earth guardians. But I don't explain this to many people who I interact with because it sounds confusing as hell. And many people see the Gods for their own right and as individuals, and they are. But I am coming in on deeper realizations about the Gods of Earth, and it's something that at times makes me feel like a crazy person. But I'd rather be a bit crazy then one who follows in the masses. My spiritual path is a work in progress, and every time I feel I have found a nice place to stop and reside for a while in my spiritual path... I see a new path I would like to explore, and the journey continues to move forward. It's like an ever expanding path with stops along the way. Does it ever end? I think no. What do you think? 

Thank you for listening to my ramblings. 
Cosmic Blessings

Updates On My Life

        I haven't wrote on here in a while, and I don't mean to leave things undone. Sometimes I feel like I don't have enough time to do things. You ever get that feeling? Like I have all of these things I want to do, but I don't get them all done. I suppose this is about prioritizing my time. Something of which I know I am not extremely well at. I am also a procrastinator. Yes it is true... I admit it. I don't want to be, but it always happens. I need to get myself out of that habit. For this post I am mainly going to vent about some things that have been on my mind lately. So what are some of the things I want to do that I seemingly do not have enough time for? Cleaning and sorting through old stuff I own. That's a big one that I really need to do to have more space and to feel less cluttered. Working on the websites. This is something that is also very important to me. I need to maintain the websites I do more frequently. Make more items for my DarkSecretCreations.com shop. This is also important to do as I really enjoy making things. It really helps me to mellow out, and it is fun. I want to channel more, and most those channelings on my youtube channels and maybe websites. I don't know if that is needed or just something I am feeling guided to do. It's something that I find myself being very drained after doing the daily routines, and I get unmotivated to channel anyone, even my own guides sometimes. This might not be catagorized as a need, more like a want... but still it is something I feel urged to do. I like channeling messages, learning new things from various spirits/ entities, and I feel those are good things to share if given permission to do so. I don't share everything I channel, but some stuff if the spirit/entity wants me to. Like if it's a global message for humanity from the Galatic Federation Of Light for example. I want to post up more videos on my youtube channel and blogs on  here, but I find myself completely at a loss of what to put it. I suppose my spirit guides would say, Melody do not rush it. Do not force things. When you're ready, the ideas will come. But I don't want to be blocking myself from ideas and inspirations from over thinking things. And boy do I over think things sometimes. Don't we all from time to time? So those are the things that have been foremost on my mind lately. I am happy I can share it with you all. Anyone out there who may come across this or who still may be following this blog website.... with my unfrequent posting, SMH.

         Updates for my life... Hmm well I have started writing prisoners. Prison penpals is something I have always thought about doing, because I have had regular penpals before. By writing prisoners I thought I could spread some love and light into those places, because I'm sure they could use some love and light. I thought I could make some good friendships out of it, and maybe even learn some things from them. Never know who you'll learn great lessons from. So I got a PO box and began my journey. I recently got one letter back. I have wrote six potential penpals over the last month. One already wrote back. She seems like someone I would be good friends with in any other occasion. Plus we are both into witchcraft and such. So I'll see how that goes. I was going for prison penpals who have life in prison or are on death row. Yeah I know, that last one is a controversial one. But who am I to judge them for their past actions. My mom told me, Mel they're probably in there for murder. What if that was your loved one they murdered. Sure I wouldn't want to befriend them, and it would be a different story. But I don't really have an answer to that what if. I am just trying to spread love and light to those who may need it. If I was in that situation, I would want the same done to me. So hopefully it turns out to be a good journey to friendships. But if not, oh well. I have a feeling it will be good though.
          Also to all my Gods and Goddesses I connect with. Some of the ones I have talked about on here before, I've been having good connections with them still. Just with me trying to better prioritize my time I haven't done as much connecting with them. I like to do that stuff outside, and it's been cold lately. We're in the winter season, and being inside trying to connect with the spirit realms while living with family in a smaller home can be a pain in the ass, haha.... to put it bluntly. But I have had some awesome dreams and visions lately. I write those down still. I make time for that. Does anyone out there have any issues with prioritizing their time and goals? Any advice you'd like to share with me or anyone else who may come across this post and relate? Share it in the comments. I read the comments and try to respond to them. Speak with you soon.

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Cosmic Blessings,
Melody