Finished My Spirit Journal

My first full spirit journal

I have something relatively Monumental for me that has happened. It may not be as large as some people would consider it, but for me I feel as though it is very special. I recently finished writing in my spirit Journal. The entire book is filled from front to back. I had to start a new spirit Journal. I began that journal on April 12th, 2017. The last entry that was put in it was for May 12, 2018. So basically 1 year and 1 month. It is so special to me, because over the duration of this year I have been able to look back on my progression spiritually. I have grown so much over the course of this year emotionally, spiritually and even bettered myself physically. I feel as though this is an accomplishment for the most part because throughout the times of me writing in the journal I have connected with my spirit team. So each time I did that, I built the relationship even more with the members of my spirit team.

The last entry

The last entry in the journal was a conversation between the Norse god Loki and I. I did so via the process of automatic writing. It is a form of channeling. I began the entry and didn't even realize that this would be the last entry. I had not realized that I had actually got to the last page of the book. So when I realized it was astonishing. Because when I first began the very first entry I wondered how long it was going to take for me to finish the book. Was I ever going to finish it? Or was this going to be something that I never fully accomplished. Was this going to be something that I started, but didn't finish. Well I am very happy that I did. After I finished the conversation entry between Loki and I, I went back and reread a little bit of the other entries. It's amazing what had came through. It's amazing how much I learned.

The First Entry

               I'm not sure how many people out there who may come across my blog website. I'm not sure how many people out there who read this. But if any of you are reading it, and if you are searching for a way to gain a more deeper connection with your spirit team. Consider beginning a spirit Journal. The things that you can write in a spirit Journal are basically anything. I would say log down the messages that you would want to say to your spirit team. Imagine as though they were sitting in front of you. Then write down what you would say to them. After you're finished with that, pay attention to whatever signs that you get. Maybe some of the signs will be synchronistic. Whatever signs you get even if it's meditations, and your Waking Life signs, or dreams; write them down in your spirit Journal.

My New Spirit Journal

If you are somebody who is familiar with channeling or automatic writing then you can do that in there too. The possibilities are endless. It's your journal and you can customize it in however way you want. For me I basically stuck with the layout of writing them letters or conversations. So that's what I stuck to. But you can have your layout in whatever way you want. I would say don't put too much thought into it. If you want to begin a spirit Journal, just begin it. Take a new notebook and then write down what you would say to your spirit guide or any other person in the spirit realm that you would like to communicate with. They will get your message. Ask them to give you some signs or some messages. In the days after be very mindful of synchronistic signs or events. Then lock them down. It's as simple as that. I promise you the more you do this the more you will not regret it. You will one day look back on the journal and realize just how much you have progressed spiritually. You will realize just how much of a deeper Bond you have with that Spirit entity because of your spirit journal. It can also help you expand your awareness to your intuition and to paying attention to signs from the spirit realms.

Thoughts From Under My Tree

       I sit here under my yellow poplar tree in the front yard. I'm looking at the green of the grass, and a cat sleeping in the yard. It's a beautiful sky today. A nice bright blue with big puffy white clouds. I got up early this morning and I got a chance to experience the energy of the morning. Normally I don't get up until about 8 or 9 p.m. But this morning I got up at about 6 p.m.. So I got an early start, of course after I drank some espresso. The energy of the morning time is very beautiful, but I still feel drawn to the sunset. There's something about the approaching night time as we anticipate the stars coming out shining in the dark. It's so magical.

        I have been thinking about a lot of stuff today. A lot of random things have been occurring in my life lately. It was also brought to my attention how I vent a lot of emotions on this website blog. Whatever you want to call it, yes I vent a lot of emotions on here. But I am proud of this little space on the internet that I call my own. I realized that I had not posted up anything in awhile, and I felt the need to say something. But on and off all day I had been wondering what I wanted to say. I don't know, and so even as I type this I am still wondering where this post is going. Isn't it the same with life. We go through life and knowing what the next corner will bring, but we need to have faith and hope that it will be positive. We need to have faith in ourselves and faith in our spirit teams. We need to have hope in ourselves and hope in our spirit teams. That's what I've been trying to do.

        So lately what's been going on in my life it's a lot of different things. Dwayne recently went to an eye doctor appointment, and he was nervous about it. We are generally not people who go to doctors unless it is absolutely necessary. Whether you consider that good or bad, it's what we do. We place a lot of our faith and spiritual and metaphysical healing. So far it has worked well for us. We have faith that it will continue to work well. But alas this is not about doctors or doctor visits. It's just that what something to happened recently. He got a new set of frames, and then decided to get a purple pair as a backup. We have been planning on going to the beach and just sitting there for a little while. We have also been planning on going to the gym to get our exercise on.

       Dwayne had a birthday on April 30th. Mine is coming up on July 5th. We use our birthdays as ways to celebrate our spirit family. We have joined together or Spirit team, consisting of our Spirit guides and a lot of other entities we connect with regularly. We have joined them together, and we celebrate the bonding that we share with them on his and my birthdays. So that was something that was fun. We took a week off of doing psychic readings. It was soothing. Even though I did have my mind on doing readings. I was not able to disassociate my mind from that spiritual work. So yeah a lot of humdrum stuff on the daily scheme of things. A lot of boring things. I'm a relatively boring person if you get to know me on a personal level. Not very exciting, haha. I'm not putting myself down it's just the way it is.

         Another aspect of my life that I have been contemplating a lot lately is my connection with Loki and Thor. These are two individuals that I have been reluctant to talk about publicly. Publicly in regards to this blog or my YouTube channel. I've just been sort of silent on the subject, but I have been regularly connecting with the both of them. Also I've been connecting with a lot of other entities. Some of which have been knew. There is an underworld demon that has been in my life lately, and I decided to befriend him. That has been exciting to befriend entities who are commonly misrepresented or misunderstood. I feel as though everybody has something to teach you, and I'm open to learning. I have recently had a few people communicate with me about the topic of Godspouses. This is a topic that I was straying away from for a while. No particular reason, I just didn't feel the need to talk about the subject. I have done a few blog post about it, I have done a few YouTube videos about it. There's none much else I could say about the topic, or so I thought, but I suppose I am misunderstood. Because the topic keeps reoccurring in my life. So you could probably expect me to talk about this topic again in the future.

         Really not much else has been going on. I've been enjoying the slow movements that life sometimes brings. Like floating along in the water, that's what I feel like I'm doing right now. Just enjoying the ride as I float along the water that is life. It's a beautiful thing in my opinion. I'm not sure if I'm making any sense to anyone else out there, but I feel like I'm making sense to myself. Recently I had somebody reach out to me who was “representing” Loki and this person claimed to have a message for me. I feel the message was more for this person rather then for me, but this person wasn’t open to equal friendship. But this Loki person said they couldn’t read what was wrong with me so they could give the message. It made me smile a bit, because it’s confirmation that my spirit team are helping me keep my privacy spiritually and emotionally. I like to share my thoughts and emotions, but only those of which I feel guided to. I don’t want spiritual people seeing into my shit unless I ask them to.

        Speaking of Loki, he has been giving me signs lately that he has various messages for me. I'm going to deeply connect tonight. I will admit I have been focusing a lot more on some of my other Spirit guides. I have also been focusing upon Thor, whom I call Hondor, more. Particularly with the connection that he and I have in regards to my soul past. A particular past life. I've been diving deeper into my soul missions and deeper into my soul experiences. It's a beautiful thing. I've been learning so much more about myself and it's things that I can apply to my current lifetime. I feel like I'm progressing so much spiritually, and it is helping me in the physical. I've been overcoming a lot of Shadow work lately. Basically just sorting through negative emotions and negative things. Understanding the negative, then releasing it to make way for more positive things. I haven't had many dreams lately or astral travels. My dreams have been very inconsistent. But when I do have a dream it is thorough. I have been with Loki and Hondor in a few dreams as well as the new Underworld demon has showed in one of my dreams. I have met new people in my dreams. Some are people that I have never seen before in my physical life here on Earth. But these people tend to reoccur in my dream. Basically they're members of my soul family, but I just don't recognize all of them yet. If anybody is out there reading this, I commend you for reading this far into my randomness.

Day Dreams, Random Thoughts, and Spirit Relationships

Lately I have been drawn to many different things, but I must remind myself to stay focused. I need to keep my mind at rest sometimes, because I am always thinking about something. I recently realized why my husband is much better at getting into a deeper meditation, it's because his mind isn't always thinking something. I do not mean that as a blast at men either. It's easier for him to clear his mind I suppose, and that is something that I don't always do. I could be watching a favorite movie and my mind is thinking about something else, even though it's a movie I enjoy. So lately my spirit team have been helping me with this. Thor has assisted me by reminding me to stay focused. He reminds me that there is only so much one person can do at a time or think about at a time, and I need to find my balance. I am one who daydreams a lot too, always have been. 

Funny story, when I was in 9th grade there was a guy in my Radio TV Commercial Writing class who thought I was on drugs and always high because I would stare at the wall zoned out for long periods of time. Believe me or not, I've never taken drugs. During that time I was a completely different person in my actions. I was very shy and withdrawn and went through a lot of depression. So daydreaming and such was a means of escape I suppose. But now it's not like I am daydreaming to escape reality... These thoughts I think about are vast and wide. Sometimes I think about life issues, the world, humanity, our civilization, the higher realms, my past lives, my soul missions, my connection with my spirit team. I think about their lives and their experiences. The list goes on and on. I have recently realized that my oldest brother has the same issues, but to an extreme. He will stress and worry himself into a damn near panic. He is not a chill person. I would catagorize myself normally as a chill person. I'm very laid back, admittedly at times lazy lol, and just a relaxed individual. But my brother takes his racing thoughts to a point of stress and it pushes people away. But that's all I'll say about him. My point is that I don't want to allow myself to welcome in stress and worry because of those thoughts I am thinking a lot. 

Don't get me wrong, they're not negative. Some are from time to time when I think about earth, animals, humanity, daily life issues, etc. But most of them are the types of thoughts one might have when daydreaming with your head in the clouds. That's totally me. And so Thor and my spirit team have been helping me to know when to focus on tasks and when to give time for daydreaming. A balance. I am greatful that I have them to help me.

Over the past two days I have been talking with a female who reached out to me over this blog using the contact me section. She is into Loki and some other deities. She's a nice person. I'm thinking Loki has led her and I to be friends. Over the past year or two I've not had much luck with remaining connected to Loki loving people. Not sure exactly why. I guess we were not vibing. But I thank Loki for leading me to this female for friendship. Speaking of Loki, I have been infrequently reaching out to him. That is another reason I want to balance my thoughts. I have my mind on so many things, and this makes me not have enough time to reach out to all of my spirit team who I love and adore. Loki and all others, I am sorry. I feel I favor Thor. I don't want to, but that's how I feel. I cannot help it. He and I seem to vibe really well. And if you're familiar with me, you'll know in my personal connecting with Thor I do not call him Thor. I call him by a soul name he gave me before. I wanted to mention that, because that's how close I feel to him. Also in no way am I sayin my connection to him or any other deity is better. I am just stating my thoughts here. Got to get them out someway. Thanks for listening. 

Cosmic Blessings

My Thoughts On The Godspouse Topic

         The term of Godspouse is something that comes with a lot of controversy. If you're wondering what Godspouse means, then please click here to go to another post I did a while back explaining about this topic.  People hear the term and some automatically dispute it as all bullshit. But what's the difference between someone who wants to devote themselves to a particular God and someone devoting themselves to Jesus Christ? In my opinion, not a damn thing. I have been called to discuss the topic of Godspousing, because that is what I feel urged to do. I have a bonding with the Norse Gods, and I feel very drawn to them. One in particular is Thor, and I know I am being called to discuss the topic of Godspouses a lot because this is something that needs light shed onto it. There are many who feel drawn to various Gods and Goddesses, and some might feel a romantic pull, but they don't know how to describe it. So I want to be someone who hopefully can bring clarity and positive light to this topic.


         However, I find myself struggling to really define myself as a Godspouse. I don't see my connection to Thor or any of the other Gods and Goddesses as a marriage necessarily. It's not in the way humans get married. After all the human idea of marriage has been shit on so much in recent years, has it not? With all the divorcing and cheating people do. The marriage bonding is something that humanity seems to be lacking to take seriously. But I am not one to judge. But I am one to take up for those who want to proceed with a marriage (A BONDING) to a God or Goddess because they feel that passionate about their love for that God or Goddess. For many who choose that path it's not about sexual pursuits. Who gives a fuck about sex when it comes to love? Sex isn't love! You could fuck a 100 people and not feel nothing for them. Love is not an equivilent of sex. Marriage is also not an equivilent of sex. In my opinion marriage is a bonding between two souls who want to show their love to one another and want to honor one another with that sort of bonding. And that is what I like about the idea of Godspousing. But honestly I do struggle to label myself with that word, and it is because of the judging people do on it. It's because of the lack of understanding people have for this topic. And so I know that is why I am being called to take up for the Godspouses out there, even though I may not completely label myself as such. I don't like labels anyway, but that's just me. Many people love labels, and to those people who do use the label of Godspouse on themselves, I want to take up for.


          They have a bonding with another soul, even though it may be a God or Goddess. But I have come across those who share that same bond with other spirit entities. I know some who feel a bonding to djinns, demons, nature spirits, aliens, ascended beings, etc. So should I am wondering if there shouldn't be a better word for those individuals. Perhaps Soul Relationship, Soul Bonding, etc. I like those terms. I wouldn't think twice about saying I have a Soul Bonding with Thor or a Soul Relationship with Thor. And so I hope this is making sense... The term Godspouse is very limited in the sense that it's only to a God and it's only a spousal connection. But there are many who feel the connection is much more then spousal. Perhaps that is a part of it, but it is much more and the tern Godspouse to many seems like a hollow term. So I am on a mission to spread the word about Soul Bondings and Soul Relationships. Perhaps even Spirit Marriages.


          After all when do you ever hear someone refer to a wife or husband as their spouse outside of a professional setting? Perhaps in a work environment you'd use that term, but in a casual setting you wouldn't use it. Right? Can you imagine, "Oh this is my Spouse Jane." No they would say this is my parter or wife Jane. Spouse seems like a downplay to a very beautiful connection that two people share. In fact in many successful marriages the two individuals have a great friendship. They would refer to one another as best friends even. I would call my husband Dwayne my best friend, and so I feel the same way about Thor. He's like a best friend who I know I can always count on. Are you a Godspouse? Do you understand what I'm saying? Let's broaden the horizon of the Godspouse term and make the label Soul Bonding or Soul Reationship more popular, because to me the idea of Godspousing is a wonderful concept, but the term needs work. Do you agree? Share your thoughts in the comments, I'd be happy to hear!!


Cosmic Blessings

To view a playlist of me talking about Godspousery on youtube please see below.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL9r7ZsbS7BljkbMDQAlnYRunlCDV5KoOV

My Spiritual Path To The Norse Gods

           My spiritual path is something that I honestly feels like it sort of defines me. I take a lot of pride in my path and how far I've come. This isn't egotistical pride. It's the sort of pride that you have when you've accomplished a goal. The kind of pride that you get when you know you're doing something right or that you're on the right path. I can honestly say that I feel I'm on the right path in my spirituality. I connect very deeply with the Norse Gods. Odin I look to as a father figure. He gives me signs of hawks and ravens in the sky always. I enjoy those signs when I get them. Buldr is one whom I am relatively new to connecting with It's only been this past year or so. The introduction came through a dream where he and I was saving lost souls. He is one of my connections to the underworld. Freya is someone who is like a sister to me, and she is constantly there. I feel she is someone I hold tight bonds to in the higher dimensions. Frigg has given me a dream where she was escourting me around a large palace, and I took that as a place in Asgard. She is a motherly figure whom I can bond with and come to for anything. She and Odin go by many names, but they're my Mother and Father God's. Sif is one whom I have soul ties to. Large karmic ties that bond she and I. I feel we are one. I have an affinity for her, she is my Sifjar. The Goddess of Thunder and Lightning. The partner and twin flame to Thor the God of Thunder and Lightning.

           Thor is one whom I also feel deeply passion for, and I have such a flaming desire for him. This isn't sexual nor is it towards romance. I feel a need to say that I am not a Marvel fangirl. This isn't a passion for Thor the character in the movie. I don't even associate Thor with that character. It's like water and fire, that's the differences between real Norse God Thor and Marvel Thor. So if anyone is on here wanting to assume that I'm just some lusty fangirl, then don't even waste your time reading my words. Thor is someone I've talked about a lot here on my website, on my youtube channel, and in my personal life with certain friends. He's someone that's been in my life forever, since birth and beyond. But I found out about him when I first began to connect with my spirit guides. This was when I started to really take my spiritual awakening seriously. I began to reach out to my spirit guides more through divination and meditation. I found out about two at first. One was Amoris who showed herself to me a lot in childhood and when I was a teenager. Lorelei was like a silent guide for a while, but she always helped me be drawn back to my Pagan path. There was always a male figure present, but I didn't connect with him. I chose to connect with my female guides, because I am a female and I guess I just felt more comfortable with them. Even though I know I had a strong bond with this other spirit guide presence. It was around 2012 or so when that spirit guide figure began to come through when I was connecting with my other guides via divination and meditation. It was slow at first, and he introduced me to my Viking roots. I had always loved the Viking and Norse Culture, even in childhood listening to the tales in History class. I even had a pagan friend tell me when we were teenagers that I should connect more with the Viking Gods. I remember her specifically telling me Thor would probably be a good God for me to connect with.

            That was when I was sort of still held by my Christian beliefs, and I was at a phase to not embrace my pagan path as much as I should have been. But I cherish those memories now like signs that I am finally where I need to be. So when this male guide came through, he introduced me to him through the name of Hondor. That's how it came through to me, but it sounds more like Hund Dor. He explained to me how he and I share a past life a long time ago in the regions of the Vikings. It was in the 700's AD. This was a lifetime which did not end in a happy ending necessarily. Long story short, I died well before my time during a storm on a Viking Knarr ship. I fell off the ship during a terrible storm, and it was my death. A death that eats at me even now. I remember as if it only happened yesterday. I recall screaming and the feeling of dread. I remember the icy cold water, and being submerged by darkness and water with only the stars above to give me a little hope after the ship went out of view. I remember hearing the screams of those on the ship calling my name, Hondor calling my name. I remember my name then, it was Fonn. This is something that has haunted me since I was a kid.

          I remember going body surfing with my older brothers. It was so much fun, but I then began to get these terrible dreams of large tidal waves taking me under and washing me away. These monsterous large Ocean Waves consuming me. The Ocean is something I love. I don't fear it. I am a Cancer in astrology, July 5th is my birthdate. I love the water, but seeing large waves gives me this sinking feeling in my heart. When that information came through about my past life it's like it all made sense. The more I embraced my connection to my male spirit guide who had always been ever present. The more I opened my heart to him after all the years of ignoring it, I realized key things that gave me indications that he was giving me riddles to solve. My spirit guides loved to speak to me in riddles, to see if I could figure out the truth. It was like quests they would send me on, and they still do sometimes. They wanted me to learn some stuff on my own instead of just telling me. So I just happened to be coming accross some Old Norse words, and I made the connection that Hund Dor (how I sounded out the word Hondor) roughly translates to Hand Of Thor. Then there was a lot of other key elements, which I will not name here as it would take too long, that led me to the realization that there's more to this male spirit guide then he is revealing.             So one day I got the balls to ask him the truth, and he revealed to me the truth... He is the Norse God Thor. So Thor took on the presence of a spirit guide figure to me throughout my life so that I could get to know him for him. So that I wouldn't see him for a Godly presence or a Thunder controling, hammer wielding spirit who is seen as a God on earth. He did that so that I could get to know the real him, the deeper true him. I also want to say that in no way am I demeaning anyone else who connects with him. I am merely sharing my own journey. But anyway, I did get to know the deeper him. In fact, he never speaks of his hammer when connecting with me. It's none of those cliche's that the Norse God in the mythologies seem to be associated with. He's very loving, wise, strong, passionate, protective, and powerful. I find comfort knowing that I have such a strong bond with him. It's simular to how a devoted Christian might feel comforted by knowing Jesus cares. That's how much passion I feel for my Hondor... for Thor. There is so much more I could say on this topic, but that's as much as I am going to write. I share this because I feel I've been called to share more over this past year. Perhaps I will learn more from sharing my experiences. Perhaps there is someone else out there with simular experiences, and by me sharing my experiences our paths will cross. I have crossed paths with a lot of great Norse God devotee's by me sharing my own experiences, and I cherish those connections with other devotee's or other Godspouses that I have met. 

              Another whom I have a deep connection with is Loki. This is partly through the underworld, Helheim. I connect with Helheim entities a lot, and those of the underworld are not all bad. Just like Loki, who is seen as evil by many, but he's not. Sure he's mischevious, he loves a good prank sometimes. He can be destructive.... but not in a bad way necessarily. It's in a destructive way so you can rebuild a stronger foundation. My husband has worked with Loki and his spirit guides by overcoming his anger. But in order for him to control his anger, he needed to experience that anger. That can be seen as the destructive side, but through that darkness he was brought to the light through overcoming anger and being more balanced. Loki helped with that. For me he has been guiding me over the past few years to be more open about him and I. So I started to talk more about how I work with him to friends who I thought I could trust. Some of that turned out good, some not. But I learned, and I broadened it. I began sharing my Loki experiences on my YouTube channel. That really showed great benefits for me personally, because I faced my fear of being judged. I didn't want people to look at me as some bullshit fan girl. I cannot say this enough... I do not associate Loki with the Loki from the Thor movies. It's like fire and water, that's how different I see it. Loki has many disguises though.

             One thing I can say for the Thor movies is that they have awakened many people to the Norse Gods, and I see that as a GREAT THING!! However you're brought to them doesn't matters. What does matter is what you do with it. If you choose to dig deeper and learn more about Norse Mythology and more about the Norse Gods. It's like Christianity, people can be brought to Jesus through movies of Jesus. Some people are guided to believing in Angels through movies about guardian angels. It's the same for those who are brought to their Norse God connection their movies or media... it's okay. I will say this though... the Thor movies did help awaken me to learn more about the TRUTH of the Norse Gods. That research is what helped me to really appriciate them even more. Before I would know about them through what teachers in school may have said or through a few tales that were passed down in childhood. But researching about them was so fun. I urge anyone who feels curious about them to do your own research. You'll be led to what you need to.

              Back to my connection to Loki, he is someone I see as a best friend. Someone who is like a kindred spirit to me. I always feel so awakened when connecting with him. The past few years I have began to dig deeper and truly accept my connection to him, and I believe that he and I are kindred souls. He has guided me to many places in dreams, meditations, and astral travels. He has showed me so much, and when I do have an astral journey with him it's always cherished. I remember one journey to a place in Helheim with him, and he showed me a river which was simular to the river sticks in Greek Mythology of the underworld river of Hades. But this place was beautiful in a dark way. When I connect with him about others, he normally always has something good to say about people. Sure he can have a destructive side, and I have heard that some Lokeans or people who are Loki devotees have issues with him ignoring them or having arguments with him. This is also true for some Lokean Godspouses. In my own experiences I can say that I haven't had any bad experiences with Loki. But I am someone who is hard to make angry. I try to avoid confrontation, and that is also something they've been helping me with. So that also could be why I only see his good side. I am sure he can have a negative side, don't we all? I have saw Thor's destructive side before, but not targeted towards me. He's normally very patient with me. But don't let that deter you from connecting with either of them if they're God's whom you admire. I hope this helps someone out there embrace their own journey, because that's why I am sharing it. It's my way of embracing my own journey.

Loki And Thor: My Two Loves Who Guide Me Every Day - A Godspouse Testimony

Loki And Thor: My Two Loves Who Guide Me Every Day - A Godspouse Testimony

          First and foremost I want to begin this by saying that I am not a Marvel Fangirl. I do not associate the actors to the Norse Gods. I am a Pagan and I suppose you could say that I am a polytheist. I see the Gods as very real individuals, who are just as real as you and me, and not as metaphors or aspects of one great God or Goddess. believe in many different dimensions and realms, and I believe that this is where many of the Gods and Goddesses reside. I have been into stories of Thor and Norse Mythology since I was a young girl. I remember it would be in the Summer in the 90's and we didn't have air conditioning when I was little. So when it thunder stormed we would go outside and enjoy the rain as long as the lightling wasn't streaking too dangerously. It was a lot of fun, and I remember the tales of Thor storming accross the sky with his chariot, goats, and hammer. I remember hearing tales of the rainbow leading to a fantasy realm. I believed in elves, fairies, and magic. I saw all of this as real, and I still do. In adulthood I began to research more and more into Norse Mythology, and I realized by connection to Loki. I realized I had visitations from him when I was young.

          I remember being about 3 years old and I was going to a celebration at my older brother's school for a group he was in called Future. I remember seeing a man and a female who looked very different from the 80's fashion styles at the time. The female was to the right of the man and was slightly shorter then the man. She had a darker brownish red colored hair, and the male had black hair that was long and neatly combed. The male stared at me with the biggest brightest smile. I went to walk over to him because he was so welcoming in energy. My mother yelled at me for walking away from her. She asked me who I was walking to. I realized that she didn't see them. I remember saying that I was walking to the man, and she said there was nobody there and to not try to walk away again or I might get lost. I still wanted to walk up to the man, but he waved his hand as if to say no, stay with your mother. So I obeyed. I now realize who that person was. It was the mischevious Loki coming in to say hello.

          I also remember another time when I was about 3 or 4 years old. It was the day I first saw a rainbow. It was a very large and bright double rainbow, and my mom called me outside to see it. She explained to me the story of the rainbow, and how there are tales of the end of the rainbow being connected to a magical mystical land. I saw a face in the sky that day. It was the face of what I now interpret as Thor. I feel very blessed to have these experiences, and these are just two experiences of times when I felt their presence or saw them. It was a great feeling to finally understand those moments when I first began to really embrace my Pagan path. 

         So I suppose techniqually you could label me a Godspouse of both Loki and Thor. But I don't like the label of something that is so one sided. I don't see myself as a spouse of a God necessarily. I see myself as having a deep intimate connection with Loki and Thor. I deeply connect with many other Gods and Goddesses as well. But it is to Loki and Thor who hold my heart. I have made my own connections to Loki and Thor to the Greek Pantheon. I often wonder if all the Gods and Goddesses can be matched up that way. I won't go into those connections I've made just yet on here. I don't feel now is the time to release that, as I still feel it is something I haven't got all the information about for myself yet. I also do not call Thor by the name of Thor. I call him by a name that I personally know him as, and it's a name that bonds he and I together through an experience a long time ago on earth. If other's are reading this right now, you may not believe me... But that's okay because I know it's true from within my soul. I do refer to Loki as Loke. He has shared with me other names he goes by, but I do prefer the term Loki or Loke. I feel it's partially because of my own name. Melody, take away the Me and leave just the Lody. It sounds very simular to Loki, and I like that. I feel like a best frend connection with Loki for so long. It has only been recently when I have feel a stronger romantic bond with him. By romantic I don't mean sex really, even though that has come up. (I feel nervous about sharing this, but I am going to proceed.) It is about the connection that two souls share, and physical sex doesn't have to be a part of that. It's kind of like when you stare into the eyes of a lover or a partner and just know that you both have a soul bond that goes deeper then flesh and bone. It penetrates the soul, and is a link that forever bonds the two. That's what I feel with Loki, and it's a beautiful feeling to have such a connection with another soul. I call them souls, because they are souls, just like us. It just so happens that they have a higher ranking in a way. So I honor that. 

         When it comes to Thor I feel the most powerful sense of wonder, lust, enjoyment, happiness, and pure fascination when I connect with him. When I see him in dreams and astral travels I feel so deeply impacted by the gaze from his eyes. In the eddas it says that Thor has fierce of fiery eyes. That's so true, because his eyes stab you with wonder. They penetrate your soul with mystery and call out to you. When he looks at you, it's like you're looking into the depth of a blazing star that is brightly shining and so amazingly beautiful. It's powerful with strength and you feel it with every sense of your being. That's what I feel when I connect with Thor. Like I said, you could count me as a Godspouse, but I do not personally define myself as a Godspouse. I take my relationships with the Gods and Goddesses that I honor very seriously. 

          Just the other day I was connecting with Thor in my spirit journal. My spirit journal is a journal I have where I write out messages to the spirit realm entities I connect with, such as my spirit guides, the Gods and Goddesses, etc. I also channel messages and log them in there. So I have been led by Thor lately to come to terms with my own opinion of marriage. I feel like I dislike marriage because of my parents marriage. They're married still, but might as well not be. In all of my years here on earth so far I have never saw them me loving to one another. They both have their own reasons and their own faults, but it's something that I feel negative about. When I think of marriage I think of their relationship, and I feel as though I don't want any parts of marriage because of that. I think that's a main reason why I don't want to define myself as a spouse, I don't even like to refer to my life partner, my husband, as a spouse. Techniqually we are not married, but we have been together for over 10 years. We both consider one another as a spouse, and I call him my husband and he calls me his wife. But the actual marriage hasn't happened, and I never wanted a marriage when I was growing up. I certainly didn't want a big wedding. I thought if anything I would elope or something like that. But I realize my reluctance to go get that marriage paper with my husband is because of my negative attachments to the idea of marriage. This has also hindered my deep connection with Thor. Now in recent years with my bonding to Loki, it's also hard. I've told him that I would rather us remain as best friends and perhaps talk about the idea of a deeper bond later. I feel like Thor and my husband Dwayne is enough for now. But I know he wants that deeper bond. I feel it everytime I connect with him, whether it's in my spirit journal, dreams, astral travels, etc. I feel it, and I feel I owe it to myself to figure out how to take away that negative attachment to the label of marriage. I like the idea of being bonded with another soul. I like the idea of life long bondings and partnerships. But it's when the term marriage comes in when I begin to cringe. So I thank Thor for helping me to realize that I have this negative attachment to marriage. I have discussed with my mother about why she's so negative, and it led to intense arguments, most of which has now passed. I know my dad's side. I know why their marriage didn't work. They got married young and for the wrong reasons, but were both too poor to really seperate. My mother has deep emotional issues when it comes to depression. My dad has his own issues, and also Bi-Polar. No I didn't grow up in an abusive childhood, but my dad cussed and yelled all the time. To this day I still dislike the fuck out of aggression and confrontation. But I have got better with dealing with that also thanks to Loki, Thor, and Dwayne my life partner-husband. 

           So this post has turned into my own life issues, but I wanted to include that because that's how deeply bonded I feel with Thor and Loki. They help me out in so many ways, and to me that is intimacy. That is romance. That is love. That is marriage. Being best friends with someone and feeling that deep soul bond. It's not about sex. You can fuck whoever you want, sex isn't even in this for me... even though it has come up and it's a nice thing to experience. But to me marriage and being a spouse, even a Godspouse... it's about being best friends and deeply knowing that other person. It's about partnership and an eternal bonding. What do you think? Leave a comment below, and don't forget to subscribe to this blog using the side panel tab to the right of the page. If you don't see the side panel tab then you're probably viewing this blog on a mobile device. Scroll all the way down to the bottom of the page and click to view the website as the desktop version. Then you'll see the side panel to subscribe to this blog.

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Astral Sex

          Imagine you're in an astral projection and you're traveling to the spaces outside of earth. You're venturing out into other planets, other realms, and other dimensions. Then you come across an individual who you feel deeply drawn to. Someone who makes your soul feel like it's flying. Someone who makes your energy surge. You feel deeply attracted to this individual, and you both find out that you're deeply bonded. You're soulmates, and then you both want to begin an intimate connection. 

         There is one main topic of this post, and it's Astral Sex. Sex is a topic that some don't want to discuss, but it's a part of everyday life. Even those who are dedicated to celibasy or being sexually abstinent have surely had at least a few thoughts on the topic of sex. But this isn't about physical sex. It's about something known as astral sex. Astral sex basically is an experience with another spiritual being while you are astral traveling. The term sex can be misleading, at is tends to paint the image of physical bodies doing sexual acts, but astral sex is more like an energy exchange. It can be a very intense and intimate experience. While astral sex can be enjoyable, you have to take it as seriously as you would any other type of sex.

         Before we go in deeper I want to explain what an out of body experience can be defined as. It is the process of separating the consciousness, spirit, from the physical body, such that the person and world are observed from outside of the body. Out of body experiences are also known as astral projections. There are several ways people perceive an out of body experience, including dreams, daydreams, and memories. People have reported having out of body experiences while under the influence of drugs or induced by some sort of trauma, as well as near death experiences. Astral projection is taught through books, the internet, and religious techniques. An out of body experience is said to be clearer than a dream or daydream. Those who practice astral projections claim that their senses are enhanced, allowing them to see and feel with more clarity and without physical constraint. This has been practiced for many years in several different cultures. When you are astral projecting, your spirit leaves the body and is capable of traveling through other planes of existence. You're always connected with your body as long as your body remains alive and in working order. It's not as fearly as someone first hearing about it might think. In this state, you can meet with another being. The possibilities are literally endless. The beings you may meet may be another living person who is astral traveling, it may be the spirit of someone between physical incarnations, or it may be a non-human spirit. A non-human spirit can be catagorized as higher dimensional beings, lower dimensional beings, alien beings, and even beings we might catagorize here on earth as Gods or Goddesses, etc.

          Astral sex can be enjoyable, but you have to take it as seriously as you would any other type of sex. Also another important thing to remember it that the transference of energy can have an arousing effect on your physical body, but it takes place on a spiritual level. The energy exchange can be an experience of pure love and joy, it can be tingly and playful, it can be refreshing and rejuvenating, or if not careful it can be unhealthy.

            One of the most important things to consider if you want to have astral sex is who your partner should be. Ideally, it should be an entity of equivalent or higher vibrations. Some people who practice Godspousery will use this as a way to connect with their spouse(s). It should be a being that makes you feel safe and comfortable, and there should be mutual respect and care in your union so that it’s mutually beneficial. Some people seek out soul mates, twin souls or twin flames while astral projecting. You may have not met this individual in this world, but because of your inherent spiritual connection you may be able to find each other on the astral plane. It can be hard to find someone who doesn’t practice astral projection deliberately, but don’t give up as everyone naturally astral projects at one time or another, sometimes it even occurs in dreams. If you keep looking, eventually you’ll be drawn to the person. If you have a lover in this life who you can’t be with physically because you’re separated by great distances, you can agree to meet in the astral plane for an encounter. In this case, it is important for both partners to be skilled at astral travel, but it’s a wonderful way for two people in a long distance relationship to enjoy each other’s affection.

         It's not advisable to initiate this type of connection with just anyone. There are lower vibrational entities, both human and non-human, that may look to have astral sex with you simply to feed off your energy. Some of these individuals can be very tricky and manipulative. This isn't to scare you off, but it's something that must be said in this topic. When you meet these sort of individuals it isn’t so much as an energy exchange as it is an energy rape, or like a psychic vampire. There’s nothing mutual or beneficial about it, and such an entity can simply leech you of your energy, and you’ll come back to your body feeling drained, confused and depressed. It’s best to avoid encounters with such beings. If you do feel one is trying to force you into an encounter you don’t want, you can call on your spirit guides or other trusted members of your soul group for assistance. You can also snap your consciousness back to your body just by thinking of being inside of it again. Astral sex is not good or bad in itself; it’s more about making smart choices to ensure a pleasurable, healthy, and beneficial experience.In other situations this is non-consensual and the living person may not know what is happening. There are beings known as Succubi and Incubi, but there are many more that can do this. Also there is living people who are able to astral project and bilocate who are able to have sex with people astrally or to merely drain people's energies astrally, and this is typically done to the person who is getting drained during sleep. Again I don't want to scare you off of this topic, but we must take the good with the bad. I'm not saying you will go into astral projection and have bad experiences. In fact, you shouldn't go into an astral projection with fear as you may attract these sorts of individuals.

          There are a few ways that spirit sex occurs, and the first we will discuss is through the willing participation of two energy workers who are alive. This means that they have bodies they return to. They would meet in a specific place, or in specific places known for sexual encounters. This may be a group of people who have all read the same books or have the same abilities who found one another or are vibrationally attracted to each who have meetups. This may also be between two living people who maintain a relationship and are exclusive who designate a spot to meet for sexual relations. 

          One of the other ways this happens is to have a Spirit Relationship with a Deity. Like I mentioned about about the topic of Godspousery. In certain beliefs there are ceremonies and rituals performed so that a living person becomes wed to a deity (God or Goddess). This is actually as complicated as a real marriage, because the deity may want to be number one in the living persons life. It depends on the relationship between the person and the deity. But this is a common practice amond those who participate in spirit marriages, spirit relationships, or godspousing. 

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