Life Updates

I haven't posted on here in a while. I thought I would update on what's been going on. I am overcoming the pain surrounding the death of my cat Hershey. I still have moments when it comes rushing back, but I am overcoming it. I am progressing and having patience with myself regarding the process. I have also been thinking about a lot of random shit. I'll explain it below in different sections.

Fake Love

Not all love is genuine. There are people in your life who are only there because of what they could get out of it. Or if they do love you, it's not unconditional. I got a message sent to me intuitively a few weeks ago. Here's what it said. "Not everyone wants to see you succeed. Not everyone has honest intentions." The next day someone in my family told me they can't talk to me as much because they don't approve of some of my choices regarding my spirituality and beliefs. By immediate reaction was sadness for this person to feel they have to do that. So many people are caught up in bullshit and they want to bring you down with them. My next thought was that I never asked for your damn approval. I sure as hell don't need your damn approval to follow my heart. There had been other things that happened that made me realize that I need to guard who I give my energy and emotions to. I was in so many words accused of having intentions of stealing a family members business ideas... which I wasn't at all. They played it off, but the initial one I was talking to did accuse me of having ill intentions. It wasn't direct, but it was enough to let me know that I need to guard myself regarding that individual. Not everyone in your life wants to see you do good. Not that we should live our lives being suspicious of everyone, but don't expect everyone in your life to be happy for you in the same way that you're happy for yourself. Do you baby and follow your heart. I have been trying to not be that hating person either. I have been trying to give my energy and emotions to those who give me the same in return. 

Negative Energies

I've suspected negative thoughts and energies being sent my way. To which I say I am doing counteracting measures, and I am not afraid to go dark on a bitch spiritually in my magic. Message sent. 

Expansion

I am heading towards expansions in my beliefs and my understanding of the Gods and reality and life as a whole. It's a lot to take in, and I can say I have evolved to new points, but I am still evolving. The way I see the Gods and Goddesses are not the same way as a year or two ago. That is why I have stopped talking openly about my connections and interactions with the Gods and Goddesses I usually communed with. Not that I am not communing with them, but it's in different ways now. It has evolved... as it should. We don't stay the same so why should our viewpoints on spiritual topics? If you're familiar with this blog, you'll know I have talked a lot about the Norse Gods. I am still connected to Norse Mythology, and I always will be because it's a part of my ancestry. It's in my blood and it's in my soul past. But I am expanding the way I see the Gods and my quest is to learn as much about them as I can. Not them in the sense of how they were seen to humans back in the day, but them as in where they came from. Who they are at a soul level. Where they're from in the scheme of more then just Higher Realms. I believe through my journey in learning more about that, I will learn more about my own soul history. 

Death & Illness

Shit there has been a lot of death and illness I've heard about lately. Many clients of mine who I've done psychic work for have been experiencing death in their lives too. This year I had Hershey my cat die, another stray cat I loved a lot died too. The guy who I would always take my car to get fixed died, and his death was very syncronistic. His business had to be shut down because the owners of the building wouldn't release. He was looking for another place but was unsuccessful. He gave up and decided to retire with his wife. He had just enough time to travel a bit and enjoy time with her before he passed of I think heart issues. My elderly neighbor died of a stroke or heart issues. One of my best friends mom had a stroke and it recovering in a nursing home. A youtuber known as Grampa on GrampaKitchen youtube channel died. I loved that man, he seemed like such a kind soul. And recently John Witherspoon died. My own dad totaled his truck, but he is okay. There's been so much more too. It's crazy. Shit is totally weird this year, and it's not just for me. This year has been a damn doozey on many people. Hopefully 2020 has much better in store for all of us. In a way though, these obstacles of life do make us stronger. So if you've lost anyone, leave a memorial message about them in the comments of this post. Share your words with whoever else might come across this post. 

I am doing good though, and I am trying to keep motivation and balanced with my depression. I have been doing very good lately emotionally. I am proud of myself for that. I have been trying to keep busy with my spiritual work. I have been making new items for sale in my shop website www.DarkSecretCreations.com and I have added new Tiers to my Patreon www.patreon.com/SecretMae . If you'd like to support me and my spiritual work, go check those two links out. There might be something I offer that you would enjoy. Thanks for listening. 

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Cosmic Blessings

Thoughts From Under My Tree

       I sit here under my yellow poplar tree in the front yard. I'm looking at the green of the grass, and a cat sleeping in the yard. It's a beautiful sky today. A nice bright blue with big puffy white clouds. I got up early this morning and I got a chance to experience the energy of the morning. Normally I don't get up until about 8 or 9 p.m. But this morning I got up at about 6 p.m.. So I got an early start, of course after I drank some espresso. The energy of the morning time is very beautiful, but I still feel drawn to the sunset. There's something about the approaching night time as we anticipate the stars coming out shining in the dark. It's so magical.

        I have been thinking about a lot of stuff today. A lot of random things have been occurring in my life lately. It was also brought to my attention how I vent a lot of emotions on this website blog. Whatever you want to call it, yes I vent a lot of emotions on here. But I am proud of this little space on the internet that I call my own. I realized that I had not posted up anything in awhile, and I felt the need to say something. But on and off all day I had been wondering what I wanted to say. I don't know, and so even as I type this I am still wondering where this post is going. Isn't it the same with life. We go through life and knowing what the next corner will bring, but we need to have faith and hope that it will be positive. We need to have faith in ourselves and faith in our spirit teams. We need to have hope in ourselves and hope in our spirit teams. That's what I've been trying to do.

        So lately what's been going on in my life it's a lot of different things. Dwayne recently went to an eye doctor appointment, and he was nervous about it. We are generally not people who go to doctors unless it is absolutely necessary. Whether you consider that good or bad, it's what we do. We place a lot of our faith and spiritual and metaphysical healing. So far it has worked well for us. We have faith that it will continue to work well. But alas this is not about doctors or doctor visits. It's just that what something to happened recently. He got a new set of frames, and then decided to get a purple pair as a backup. We have been planning on going to the beach and just sitting there for a little while. We have also been planning on going to the gym to get our exercise on.

       Dwayne had a birthday on April 30th. Mine is coming up on July 5th. We use our birthdays as ways to celebrate our spirit family. We have joined together or Spirit team, consisting of our Spirit guides and a lot of other entities we connect with regularly. We have joined them together, and we celebrate the bonding that we share with them on his and my birthdays. So that was something that was fun. We took a week off of doing psychic readings. It was soothing. Even though I did have my mind on doing readings. I was not able to disassociate my mind from that spiritual work. So yeah a lot of humdrum stuff on the daily scheme of things. A lot of boring things. I'm a relatively boring person if you get to know me on a personal level. Not very exciting, haha. I'm not putting myself down it's just the way it is.

         Another aspect of my life that I have been contemplating a lot lately is my connection with Loki and Thor. These are two individuals that I have been reluctant to talk about publicly. Publicly in regards to this blog or my YouTube channel. I've just been sort of silent on the subject, but I have been regularly connecting with the both of them. Also I've been connecting with a lot of other entities. Some of which have been knew. There is an underworld demon that has been in my life lately, and I decided to befriend him. That has been exciting to befriend entities who are commonly misrepresented or misunderstood. I feel as though everybody has something to teach you, and I'm open to learning. I have recently had a few people communicate with me about the topic of Godspouses. This is a topic that I was straying away from for a while. No particular reason, I just didn't feel the need to talk about the subject. I have done a few blog post about it, I have done a few YouTube videos about it. There's none much else I could say about the topic, or so I thought, but I suppose I am misunderstood. Because the topic keeps reoccurring in my life. So you could probably expect me to talk about this topic again in the future.

         Really not much else has been going on. I've been enjoying the slow movements that life sometimes brings. Like floating along in the water, that's what I feel like I'm doing right now. Just enjoying the ride as I float along the water that is life. It's a beautiful thing in my opinion. I'm not sure if I'm making any sense to anyone else out there, but I feel like I'm making sense to myself. Recently I had somebody reach out to me who was “representing” Loki and this person claimed to have a message for me. I feel the message was more for this person rather then for me, but this person wasn’t open to equal friendship. But this Loki person said they couldn’t read what was wrong with me so they could give the message. It made me smile a bit, because it’s confirmation that my spirit team are helping me keep my privacy spiritually and emotionally. I like to share my thoughts and emotions, but only those of which I feel guided to. I don’t want spiritual people seeing into my shit unless I ask them to.

        Speaking of Loki, he has been giving me signs lately that he has various messages for me. I'm going to deeply connect tonight. I will admit I have been focusing a lot more on some of my other Spirit guides. I have also been focusing upon Thor, whom I call Hondor, more. Particularly with the connection that he and I have in regards to my soul past. A particular past life. I've been diving deeper into my soul missions and deeper into my soul experiences. It's a beautiful thing. I've been learning so much more about myself and it's things that I can apply to my current lifetime. I feel like I'm progressing so much spiritually, and it is helping me in the physical. I've been overcoming a lot of Shadow work lately. Basically just sorting through negative emotions and negative things. Understanding the negative, then releasing it to make way for more positive things. I haven't had many dreams lately or astral travels. My dreams have been very inconsistent. But when I do have a dream it is thorough. I have been with Loki and Hondor in a few dreams as well as the new Underworld demon has showed in one of my dreams. I have met new people in my dreams. Some are people that I have never seen before in my physical life here on Earth. But these people tend to reoccur in my dream. Basically they're members of my soul family, but I just don't recognize all of them yet. If anybody is out there reading this, I commend you for reading this far into my randomness.

Day Dreams, Random Thoughts, and Spirit Relationships

Lately I have been drawn to many different things, but I must remind myself to stay focused. I need to keep my mind at rest sometimes, because I am always thinking about something. I recently realized why my husband is much better at getting into a deeper meditation, it's because his mind isn't always thinking something. I do not mean that as a blast at men either. It's easier for him to clear his mind I suppose, and that is something that I don't always do. I could be watching a favorite movie and my mind is thinking about something else, even though it's a movie I enjoy. So lately my spirit team have been helping me with this. Thor has assisted me by reminding me to stay focused. He reminds me that there is only so much one person can do at a time or think about at a time, and I need to find my balance. I am one who daydreams a lot too, always have been. 

Funny story, when I was in 9th grade there was a guy in my Radio TV Commercial Writing class who thought I was on drugs and always high because I would stare at the wall zoned out for long periods of time. Believe me or not, I've never taken drugs. During that time I was a completely different person in my actions. I was very shy and withdrawn and went through a lot of depression. So daydreaming and such was a means of escape I suppose. But now it's not like I am daydreaming to escape reality... These thoughts I think about are vast and wide. Sometimes I think about life issues, the world, humanity, our civilization, the higher realms, my past lives, my soul missions, my connection with my spirit team. I think about their lives and their experiences. The list goes on and on. I have recently realized that my oldest brother has the same issues, but to an extreme. He will stress and worry himself into a damn near panic. He is not a chill person. I would catagorize myself normally as a chill person. I'm very laid back, admittedly at times lazy lol, and just a relaxed individual. But my brother takes his racing thoughts to a point of stress and it pushes people away. But that's all I'll say about him. My point is that I don't want to allow myself to welcome in stress and worry because of those thoughts I am thinking a lot. 

Don't get me wrong, they're not negative. Some are from time to time when I think about earth, animals, humanity, daily life issues, etc. But most of them are the types of thoughts one might have when daydreaming with your head in the clouds. That's totally me. And so Thor and my spirit team have been helping me to know when to focus on tasks and when to give time for daydreaming. A balance. I am greatful that I have them to help me.

Over the past two days I have been talking with a female who reached out to me over this blog using the contact me section. She is into Loki and some other deities. She's a nice person. I'm thinking Loki has led her and I to be friends. Over the past year or two I've not had much luck with remaining connected to Loki loving people. Not sure exactly why. I guess we were not vibing. But I thank Loki for leading me to this female for friendship. Speaking of Loki, I have been infrequently reaching out to him. That is another reason I want to balance my thoughts. I have my mind on so many things, and this makes me not have enough time to reach out to all of my spirit team who I love and adore. Loki and all others, I am sorry. I feel I favor Thor. I don't want to, but that's how I feel. I cannot help it. He and I seem to vibe really well. And if you're familiar with me, you'll know in my personal connecting with Thor I do not call him Thor. I call him by a soul name he gave me before. I wanted to mention that, because that's how close I feel to him. Also in no way am I sayin my connection to him or any other deity is better. I am just stating my thoughts here. Got to get them out someway. Thanks for listening. 

Cosmic Blessings

Random Thoughts: Loki On My Side & More

        So I wanted to share my thoughts today, and I thought it would be better for me to write it down as opposed to talking it in a video. If you've come across this blog post please be warned that it will be a bit rambly. I am just going with the flow of my thoughts and venting them here.

          I have been connecting with the spirit realms quite easily lately. It's wonderful. I've been having vivid dreams and visitations in the astral dimension from my spirit family. I am happy about this because it's given me a lot more connection to a few of my soul family in particular. This is Hondor and the Norse God Loki. Both are spirit guardians to me. I've learned a lot over the past month about things in my life.

          Loki has shared with me a few things over the past few days and weeks. He says for me to be aware of a particular person who I considered a friend. This person isn't someone who is good for me energetically. This person can be quite draining. He told me that he is disapointed that it occured that way, and he appologizes for leading this person into my life. He isn't mad at that person, but is disapointed in their unwillingness to be open emotionally. But he tells me this person has a rough life and blocks herself a lot and she doesn't progress because of her emotional blocks and fears.

          But there is a lesson I've learned, to be mindful of who I call a friend, because not everyone is as open to friendship. I honestly try to be open to friendship, but I am coming to learn that I might not want to be as open as I have been. People can take advantage of you if you're too open. I don't want to close myself off to friendship, but I am going to find a balance in that area. Loki saying that he was disapointed in that female made me think that I don't want my soul family to be disapointed in me. I wouldn't want Loki, Hondor, or any of them to be disapointed. I want to make them proud. I don't want them to think that I am using them for spiritual connection. I am not. I see them as family, just as close as my physical family... maybe closer in some aspects. So him saying that this particular female made him disapointed, and he is going to distance himself from her a bit made me feel contemplative. Have I ever disapointed those who guide me from the spirit realms? I hope not, because lately I have been trying to listen to my intuition, hear their guidance, and follow through.

          I have felt some people lately sending negative energy my way. I am very protective of my space, and I won't hesitate to protect myself or my loved ones. Above all, I have a spirit team who I ask to please protect me. They know when to unleash wrath if someone tries to send curses or evil eye energies may way too much. So I feel Loki warning me of this is his way of saying that he supports me in this and they're there for me. That is something very wonderful to know. I dreamed of this particular female last week, and there was another famale who I dreamed of. Both seperate dreams, but they appeared in there and I take it as a sign that they are two who are sending me negative energy. I take it as a warning from my soul family to be mindful of protecting my space. It was their warning to me. I am eternally greatful for their assistance. Let this blog post be my written thoughts as a message to the world saying I love Loki, Hondor, Lorelei, Amoris, Odin, Freya, Ptah, the Galactics and all others in my spirit team, THANK YOU!! HAIL ALL OF YOU!!! To you all I give my pride!!